Like a drug addict ,

Relink!

2009-09-12T18:16:00.004+08:00

Hello people,
i hope you all don't mind, that i've changed my blog url once again !
Still hoping to read about my daily life?

Relink @ MYNEWBLOGURL! :D

Byeeeeee, (:

xoxo,

2009-08-17T00:35:00.001+08:00

FUCK ,
I'M SO FUCKING DEPRESSED NOW.
CAUSE I'M SO FUCKING CARELESS THAT I LOST MY EZ LINK CARD.
K , I KNOW ITS STUPID TO EMO OVER A LOSS OF CARD.
BUT , ITS LIKE WITHOUT IT HOW THE FUCK I TRAVEL ?
AND I JUST TOP MY CONCESSION AND STUFFS LAH .
WALAO EH , !@#$%
AND I LOST IT LIKE ALOT OF TIMES LE LOR .
UGH , FUCK FUCK FUCK .

2009-08-05T22:01:00.000+08:00

我累了。
也许是我太过在乎身边的一切，
也许是我想得太多，

2009-08-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, I never needed strain
My love for you is strong enough you should have known
I never needed you for judgment
I never needed you to question what I spend
I never ask for help
I take care of myself
I don’t why you think you got a hold on me

And it’s a little late for conversations
There isn’t anything for you to say
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So look at me and listen to me because…

I don’t want to stay another minute
I don’t want you to say a single word
Hush hush
Hush hush
There is no other way, I get the final say
Because…
I don’t want to, do this any longer
I don’t want you, theres nothing left to say
Hush hush
Hush hush
I’ve already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how I act to what I say
I never needed words I never needed hurts
I never needed you to be there everyday
I’m sorry for the way I let go
From everything I wanted when you came along
But I am never beaten, broken not defeated
I know next to you is not where I belong

And it’s a little late for explanations
There isn’t anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So you will listen when I say baby…

I don’t want to stay another minute
I don’t want you to say a single word
Hush hush
Hush hush
There is no other way, I get the final say
Because…
I don’t want to do this any longer
I don’t want you there’s nothing left to say
Hush hush
Hush hush
I’ve already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush hush

No more words
No more lies
No more crying

No more pain
No more hurt
No more trying

I don’t want to stay another minute
I don’t want you to say a single word
Hush hush
Hush hush
There is no other way, I get the final say
Because…
I don’t want to, do this any longer
I don’t want you, theres nothing left to say
Hush hush
Hush hush
I’ve already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush hush

- Pussycat Dolls ; Hush Hush

Study Stress

2009-07-29T18:55:00.000+08:00

I guess i'm going mia real soon?
Not exactly mia, just you wont find me online,
nor updating my blog.
anything, find me through text/call .

Gonna lock myself away from com from now till exams.
the most, use com for f&n coursework and other homeworks.
Or like weekends 3 hours max.
Gonna chiong studies like mad, and i hope i can do it.

Anything text / call , off i go . Bye :)

Btw, yesterday was our dear daddy's birthday.
HappyBirthdayMrImran! ♥
Be glad that your tikopek-look photo is not up. hahaha .
Love you to the max ! :)

2009-07-21T19:48:00.003+08:00

Oh wtf?
Blogger sucks like !@#$%
Anyway, went to west mall to get my new phone on sunday.
Was craving for venezia so badly since the moment i open my eyes.
I resisted the temptation all the way to monday afternoon lah :/
How pathetic ):
School on monday was hell tired ):
We had crazy CME lessons -.-

Today is Racial Harmony Day!
I'm trying my best not to disturb Ashraf, and end up i still shouted BLACKBUD.
okay, how mean :/
Went tiong for lunch, like almost everyday .____.
Had venezia again! <3

Okay, enough of blogging.
Time to study Proteins, and TRY to do chinese :/
Time to chiong coursework before Mrs Anthony screams her head off tomorrow.
Headache, arghs ):

2009-07-18T11:17:00.002+08:00

Been so long since i last update.
- Went commonwealth meet priya get back earpiece.
- Alexandra for brunch , was so damnit hungry.
- Bused to bugis street .
- Was looking for presents , and ended up shopping :X
- Bought fake eyelashes and glue.
- Walked around awhile more at junction .
- 175-ed home,
- Bathe, get ready for wedding dinner :X
- Cabbed there :)

Okay, wedding dinner was at hotel inn.
The bride's a vietnamese.
They held their wedding thrice at singapore, malaysia and vietnam. Cool uh? :X
took photos :)
Food was not bad, and i was a water tank lah :/
3 cups coke, 4 cups tea, 2 cups pure hard liquor, 1 red wine, and a beer :)
Love the dessert <3
Cabbed home with family, dota-ed till 2.
Yvonne learnt dota eh!
didnt dota the last match with them cause i'm damnit tired.

Gonna go out to study sooooooon :)
Gonna meet up with junda'budbud & rey!
Gonna get myself venezia,
Gonna get new phone today maybe. YAY :D

Photos :

2009-07-14T18:54:00.000+08:00

I'M DAMN TIRED AND HAVING HEADACHE NOW ! ):
had oral today , screwed it up a little.
Few words that i didnt know how to read, and conversation wasnt that good :/
Anyway, I'M DYING NOW LAAAA ):
time to do that coursework , before mrs anthony goes screaming tomorrow.
K BYE :]
Oh, i've gotten black and blue contacts ! :D

A spoilt shopping day? :x

2009-07-12T23:35:00.003+08:00

Today's sunday!
Most probably meant for family day,
cause mommy dont work, daddy ends work early.
Slept till about 11 in the morning .
Dota with reynold, and kelvin , Bathed.
was waiting for mommy to buy me brunch back home, Fillet O' Fish! :)
Out with aunty jennifer, glen, mommy and sissy.
first to punggol , cause sissy want see how kimiko looks like.
That baby , seriously damn cute norhs.
The way she crawl , is one leg in front, one leg behind. Like a crab. :x
Photos of her later :)
Then went the mall at punggol, then to hougang mall. Our last stop, kovan.
Had dinner there at the market or something like that.
Had ice cream, mini melts? cause there's no venezia :x
Okay, i hate today. Shopping?
Shop for sissy's and mommy's one only lor.
mine leh, see clothes nia.
my mommy beside keep commenting, ._,
- too short lah , when its not -.-
- too colourful lah , when its okay for teenager .
- too this and too that ._,
SUA, DONT BUY. WALK OUT.
k , wasted my whole damn day.
when i can actually meet up with shat& co.
Sorry eh, ps you all today. Unexpected outing too.
Thought i could get something, end up NOTHING.
but a pair of sore legs at the end of the day. :/ :/
Anyway, saturday woke up at 8.
went church deco with aunty jennifer at ang mo kio.
after that, went to thomson take flowers .
and amk hub for mac breakfast.
shopped around cause there's still plenty of time.
Bought black heels :)
Then back to church to collect the things back.
Back to shop, slacked. Lunched with mommy and sissy.
Had pasta, and headed home to bathe.
bused to purmei , didnt get to see jiankun . chinchai's still so short, but blacker like malay.
edmund cabbed me to abc, met up with roy.
supposed to meet the two lovebirds, but he ps me .
so accompany me to wait for bus, to go tiong and bus home.
I tell you, his bus stop so damn pathetic, only got one 63 bus.
AND ITS LIKE SUPER DUPER LONG -.-
saw rafael, acoompanied me to wait for 195.
then it started pouring heavily, felt so bad 'cause rafael cant go home :/
Sorry and Thanks! :D
Mommy came to fetch me with an umbrella. Thanks :)
Dinnered. Bathed, Dotaed, Slept :D

Photos cant be uploaded, other day k :)
There's school tomorrow, gotta sleep.
Time: 12.03am , Byeeeeeeeeeee (:

2009-07-09T23:30:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Rica Sweetie! :D

School's boring.
Went school for literature lessons and english only.
Did an essay, not completed.
English was boring to the max.
Went home during recess time.
Cabbed to see a doctor,
bused home slept.
12 - 6 .
Now still headache, gonna update previous posts.
Then sleep. bye. :)

2009-07-08T22:57:00.001+08:00

Firstly,
Happy sweet 15th to ThamJingYi ` shagua :D
Me super love you to the max! (:

2009-07-06T23:40:00.002+08:00

Its youth day today, which means no school! :)
Havent been updating for the past few days since saturday uh?

Saturday,

2009-07-02T23:14:00.003+08:00

Had free periods for Poa today.
Slept, 'cause very very tired, stomachache :/
Wanted to go home during recess, but idk why also.
Hmmms.
Went tiong for lunch with shat& co.
Nearly got bang by van O:
Homed after having kfc, slept.
Woke at 8 plus, dinnered and tv-ed.
Off to do brochure, Bye.
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Oh, class outing on Monday since its youth day.
Meet 12.30 at Yakun for breakfast at safra,
play bowling/pool.
then vivo for sushi tei as lunch.
I feel so tired :/

2009-07-01T21:40:00.002+08:00

Ohmygoddd,
I hate school seriously.
I'm super tired, :/
I hate it when teachers tell us, hand in homework, do this project, the datelines, exams, test.
---
still having my bad headache,
went to watch transformers after school, with desmond, yvonne, marx, kenneth, bryan, benedict, rafael and david.
Homed, slept, bathed, dinnered.
Today's an extreme day for me,
Bad moodswings, Bad attitudes, Bad headache, Bad day.
Joey's tired, i need some rest.
After getting songs that i want, i shall off my com and sleep.
gonna go rest on bed first, byeeeeeee :)

2009-06-30T23:30:00.001+08:00

I didnt go school today.
Fever gone.
Left with headache and stomachache.
Slept all the way till 12, woke up with a bit of stomachache still.
Headache's still not going off.
Guess i've been sleeping late too often and didnt have enough rest.
Gonna sleep early from now onwards, anyway school started too.
Hopefully by 11, i'll be on bed.
Dont worry, I'll blog definately no matter what, everyday.
One day dont blog, i feel weird O:
If i didnt update, means seriously too tired to the max! ):
Okay, time to get some rest now.
Nights readers :)

2009-06-29T21:51:00.003+08:00

School's Today.
It was a long and boring day.
Had free periods, slacked outside class.
then stomach starts to pain till now.
after school went tiong to have lunch with yvonne, yuexuan and shengying.
had longjohn, after that met up with shat& co.
walked and slacked around.
Bused home with yvonne.
not feeling well now, still thinking whether to go school not.
I'm super tired, :/
My temperature's like 37.6 now -.- i hope it decreases ):
then from stomach pain, to the itchy kind of feeling inside my tummy.
itchy and numb, and pain. LIKE WTF. ):
gotta go do my homework , will be resting early tonight.
Mentally & Physically Tired.
I feel so miserable now ):
Headache too, D: D:
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :/

2009-06-28T22:48:00.002+08:00

Hello, :)
yvonne came my house to stay overnight.
was super bored and didnt know what to do.
dota-ed, and watch some random videos on youtube, bloghopped.
chatted, drank lots of water, and ate snacks.
slept at about 6 plus in the morning, off com at 5?
stupid sister got her own bed to sleep , dont want sleep.
go sleep the spare bed, then yvonne no bed sleep.
end up we two slept on my bed, in a supre pathetic way.
was super tired for goodness sake ):
yvonne went home to bathe , me too.
met up with shathish and royston for lunch at crescent.
had chicken rice and bubble tea.
walked home, they came my house to slack.
shathish was complaining my mouse is lousy as he play dota lah -.-
then they raped my mickey mouse ):
Hell lah, first two to rape my mickey mouse lah.
if not, no one can actually do anything to my mickey lah.
met parents for dinner at about nine, dinnered at redhill market.
homed, and here i am blogging.
I'm so not ready for school tomorrow, are you?
I bet everyone's still in holiday mood.
Oh god, i look so pathetic in my uniform :/
and my mommy dont let me buy new bagpack ):
A long day tomorrow, cause it's Monday.
OH YAY, I HEARD NO ASSEMBLY & OUR CANTEEN IS BACK :D
cheeeeeers. cause i missed "daddy's " super nice noodle like so badly.
Heeeeeeee, i'm tired.

with lots of things running through my mind.

2009-06-27T14:50:00.003+08:00

Slept at about 4 last night,
SUPER TIRED TO THE MAX ):
woke at about 12+++ ?
Lazing on bed, :D
had fishball noodles, and using computer now.
gonna meet up with friends and go henderson wave to count stars :)
Might be tonning at my house afterwards? No ideaaaaa.
Lalalas, one more day and few more hours to school reopen.
I'm so not excited about it, cause my homework not done D:
gonna chiong f&n for the whole day on sunday, i dont care!

oh, and after bloghopping,
90% of the blogs i hopped, are all blogging about Michael Jackson's death lahhhhh.
Okay then i shall blog about it too,
Michael Jackson Rest In Peace :)

Off to do housework , gonna update tonight.
----- edited!

didnt went to henderson wave, oh no ):

2009-06-26T23:31:00.002+08:00

Slept at 2.30am , thanks to my sissy -.-
Got a morning call , and yeah woke up and wash up.
Laughs , sorry kenneth for the wait :P
Trained to bugis, meet up with Bryan& Hiumun.
walked to his house, and its like super hot lah.
We all started with facebooking, msning and tv.
And finally, i get to work first :D *claps.
Hiumun still facebooking on the computer and i took the laptop to start my work.
End up bryan& kenneth watch tv, LOL.
They bought Mac for their brunch? I had my Mac breakfast at home :)
Then bryan started dotaing, and sq that dumb thought it was me.
Then finished our work , and started slacking :]
bryan & kenneth gave up straight away cause monday they're gonna do it again.
Kenneth went off early cause his mum came to fetch.
Waited for Bryan to bathe, sent hiumun to the bus stop, then walked to bugis junction.
met up with shathish& co.
Bused to vivo, had pastamania with shathish and royston.
Playing some kind of word games, and i lost cause i got stuck at Y words -.-
Then waited for parents to finish attending the wedding dinner,
fetched the guys and yvonne home.
Was feeling damn tired, :X
Yay, henderson waves tomorrow? :P

2009-06-25T23:11:00.001+08:00

Met up with yvonne at my house,
bused to harbourfront.
had mac for first meal , :)
Met reynold later on ,
tried to do my homework, but i got stuck on the first question for so long that i just gave up ):
Went to walk around vivo,
saw kaijun& co. and gary& co.
Homed afterwards,
Reynold went with ben& co. for movie.
Tired, :/

2009-06-24T22:49:00.003+08:00

Today,
got woke up early in the morning at eight by the loud thunder.
after i woke i cant get back to sleep.
yeah, i'm still having nightmares lah. ):
then i kept getting scare by myself, :/
then i got really tired, so i manage to fall asleep again.
Woke at around 11 plus?
Just randomly grab a bite cause i was rather hungry.
then sat at computer, facebook, bloghop, msn.
Life's so boring.
I rotted the whole day at home, wasting time away.
I seriously need the motivation to get my homework done ):
I want an extension of holiday, please? D:
sighs, time passed by so quickly O:
I'm still deciding whether i should go malaysia for the wedding dinner on saturday anot.
hmmms, should be going out to do homework i think
Lalalas, gonna go offline already, byeeeee :]
1.38am , stop thinking and go to sleep.
Hopefully no nightmares tonight, but beautiful dreams :/

2009-06-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

Woke up around 11 or so.
went flowershop help aunty tend the shop.
I'm late for like 30 mins? cause i kept lazing on bed.
Was helping her do some flowers,
and suddenly i feel like i'm going to get a blackout and faint,
then quickly sat down and rest. :/
The feeling's horrible lahhh , imagine you faint in the shop with no one noticing except customers that came in? LOL.
Was resting and using msn, and waiting for yvonne to come back and buy me food.
I'm like freaking dying of hunger ):
3+ she tell me still need stay back for guides, i was like wth!
tahan all the way till 4+ 5, grandfather at home free liao come down buy me food.
Suddenly, food's like super nice to me lahhh.
I never want to faint again, cause its freaking scary lah.
had a fainting experience at hospital while visiting her,
end up stayed in hospital with her, damn joke lor.
all the doctors and nurses all come disturb me with that, said i was a good friend accompany friend in hospital, LOL.
Yvonne came at idk what time, she went to buy her food too.
At about 7, bused to tiong meet royston, xuke& shathish.
Slacked around there, saw shermaine, ivan'mummy :x
Laughs, i cant wait to go home lah. (inside joke!)

And its like freaking scary?
when at night, your house downstairs suddenly appear a group of unknown gangsters, sitting one straight row and when you walked past, they all stare at you? LOL.

Homed for dinner, used computer.
wanted to blog but lazy, but i saved a draft so that i still post as yesterday's date.
BYEEEEEEE.

I'll stay happy.

2009-06-23T01:25:00.002+08:00

Didnt go out,
slept at 3+ last night.
woke at 1.30 in the afternoon, cause super hot.
woke up , and it feels like i had a hangover last night -.-
Had some food , and stayed in front of my computer till mum came home.
tried to study but i cant. dinner, tv, tv & tv.
packed a bit of my cupboard cause its like super messy to the max?
ask yuexuan & yvonne, and those who came my house.
at least study table packed nicely already :)
Sian, gotta go help aunty tend the shop at 1230.
OH BORED, anyone's gonna ask me out for study especially? :/
hmmms, think yvonne's coming my house tomorrow?
I dont know, but we're meeting for lunch :D
few more days to school reopen, i'm dying for an extension .
my homeworks are so not done, ):
I'm just not in the mood to study, and wth. my promise before holiday is so so ruined.
I promised i'll study, I promised i'll catch up with everything i dont know.
but it seems like, this holiday i'm suppose to meet up with quite a number of people? O:
Oh no, sorry junda, keep delaying to meet you for pool.
Class outings, last year's & this year's - all postpone.
meeting hiumun, bryan& kenneth to do our lit project on friday.
so much more homeworks, sighs.
I wished that time could slow down, I wished that one day has more than 24 hours.
Though its just counting down to holiday end, it seems like counting down to my death day.
I just find that i've not enough time at all, ):
Time to sleep, its 2.48am.
Byeeeeeeeeeeee :)

Happy Fathers' Day!

2009-06-22T03:16:00.004+08:00

Happy Fathers' Day! :]

Had nightmares last night ):
Seriously, i cant fall asleep lahhhhh :/
how i wish you were by me, wanted to sms you. but i dont know why i didnt.
Only manage to fall asleep after playing some songs,
and making my mind think of something else,
something else, like you.
Woke up at only about 1.30 in the afternoon,
was super tired, and had cramps like shitzx ):
Stayed home whole day, used computer.
totally moodless, with that stupid cramp killing me.
Out for dinner with family at around 6 ?
went tiong, bought some stuffs from popular.
bought pie from pie kia home,
homed, sian to the max.
got jio-ed for dota, so anything lor.
i'm tired , mentally & physically.
and i hope , you've not given up on me ):
i miss you hell loads .
all i ever wanted is only you, <3

2009-06-20T23:59:00.002+08:00

Yesterday,
went out with yuexuan and marx.
met yuexuan at my house, then bused to meet marx.
studied at harbourfront mac.
was rather hungry .
did some chinese, chatted, and walked around vivo.
bused to purmei , saw Jueyu'babyyy and co.
Went to bubbletea shop, saw weekeat :)
Walked down till the next bus stop,
seperated with marx and yuexuan after crossing the traffic light.
walked alone with loud musics playing through my earpiece.
Bused home, had dinner.
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Today, slept at 4+ in the morning.
woke at 10 plus.
suppose to meet yvonne'dear for breakfast but i couldnt wake up.
she came my house to slack for awhile.
mum forced me to have my lunch before going out,
when i told her i'm super super late already.
no choice, cabbed to plaza sing.
caught drag me to hell with him.
Okay, that show freaked me out so much lah.
Loud sound effects, ugly& scary faces, sudden effects and disgusting scenes.
Bused back purmei with him after movie.
Went hillock to look for blaise, kelman and louis ?
Jueyu came afterwards.
and more people came later on .
Had a slight drizzle, but it was gone when its about 7+ 8 ?
Had alot of food lah, super nice :)
Chatted, Played Swing, Played AssholeDaidee.
Had a game with mashmallows, gotta stuff one into your mouth and say ChubbyBunny clearly.
Then see how many you can stuff in and saying ChubbyBunny clearly.
Super unglam lah, i one already cannot make it. LOL.
dad came to fetch me home, sian lor.
wanted to stay overnight :(
and i missed you alot alot.

2009-06-18T23:51:00.010+08:00

Happy birthday once again, to yvonne, shathish, debra& luvena :]
Happy sweet 15th.

A day out with yuexuan, yvonne and hweeying.
Had our lunch at my house there de coffeeshop, the new stall that sells pasta and stuffs.
super cheap lah, not bad also.
hmmms.
bused to plaza sing.
walked around, decided go cathay see timings for movies.
saw mr yuen, but just bo chap lah.
then decided not to watch movie,
back to plaza sing, walked around.
then 16-ed to tiong.
bought bubble tea,
hweeying bought some clips and went home.
we met up with royston, shathish and xuke.
saw marx& co.
went shathish house, and yeah MUCHO is there.
seriously that dog freaked me out. -.-
MERZ is much cuter lah , miss him ): LOL.
Had dinner there, then yeah cut cake and stuffs.
went tiong at 9++ , slacked outside tiong.
chatted, played music.
Bused home with yvonne at around 10.10.
Was left alone for a moment cause all went toilet,
and all that was on my mind, is you.
tears was coming out, but i held it back somehow. :/
Had lots of camwhore today, photos next.

Birthday Girl!

Birthday Boy!

Zilians next :)

P/s, this emo pic is taken.
because my house has no electricity from 11.30-12.30pm today.
no tv watch, no computer used.
only got water, so played with black eyeshadow. LOL.

OKAY, I'M TIRED.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

2009-06-17T23:14:00.003+08:00

Firstly, i wanna watch Drag me to hell.
But, i'm freaking scared lah, to be honest :(
Who's brave enough to watch with me, anyone?

Started my day ,
by waking up at 9, to help aunty open shop.
Used the computer the whole morning in shop,
Super tired, woke with bodyaches.
Eyes are super pain , cause of some reasons O:
Met yvonne at shop before going for lunch.
Tried the next stall , and its not bad.
Had minestrone soup & creamy chicken pasta.
Homed afterwards.
A day out with mum , sister & yvonne.
Bused to queensway to buy shoes.
And i kept feeling hungry, idk why :/
Then mum& sister went bm.
bused to bugis with yvonne.
decided to find yuexuan at suntec, so trained there.
passed her , her beloved earpiece & walked around with her.
then walked around with yvonne, and bused back bugis.
LOL. window shopped.
Saw this pair of heels that are rather nice? hahaha.
And i need a mirror desperately,
i broke my chocolate mirror :(
My eyebags are horrible now, you can see from the photos later.
Off to sleeep, BYEEEE!

Btw, Happy Birthday to Yvonne'Dear.
15 liao , and grow up lahhhhhhhh.
dont be so retarded can,
& continue being your good christian girl !
Happy Birthday to Shathish'Lovely.
I've just got to really know you abit more.
Those few outings out together are really fun.
ROCK ON :D
Happy Birthday Dee'Nutty.
Thanks for always being there for me :)
i miss your hugs though. :/
Happy Birthday Luvena'Niecey.
I've known you since we're in primary school.
15 already eh? be happy always <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_-NJWAPD6YSM/SjkXDW1FIFI/AAAAAAAAAoY/5u0Vgin1qCQ/s1600-h/DSC00314.JPG">

2009-06-16T22:37:00.006+08:00

Not all scars show, Not all wounds heal.,
Sometimes you just cant see the pain that someone feels.
Pain makes me strong, I'm holding on to something,
Hoping it will come back, but knowing it wont.

If I could have one wish,
It would be to wake up everyday,
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the deadliest kisses of yours on my lips,
the touch of your fingertip on my skin,
and the sound of your steady heartbeat,
that belongs to me.
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.
It seems like, the one who hurts me the most.
Seems to be the only one who can cure me and bring me back to my feet again :/
and i know, i wouldnt be yours again.

2009-06-16T00:39:00.003+08:00

I want to go east coast park with yuexuan'honey to scream our lungs out. :/
I want to have heart-to-heart talks with girlfriends ):
I hate to be alone at nights , ):
I feel so miserable :/
I want to go henderson wave.
Sighs.
I want to meet Jueyu.
I've got so much to rant :/
I want to meet Yolanda, Ischelle& Debra.
Its been so long since we last met.
I want to meet Yuexuan, Jingyi& Yvonne.
I've got so much so much to say, I want to cry it all out loud ):
I want to meet Reynold, Edmund, Junda& Janitra.
Its been so long since we last met.
I miss full-courts O:

'cause i know i'll have to stay strong,
but its just so hard, that i cant help breaking down.
when you cant stop tears at night,
at flashbacks of memories of you& him.
how would you feel& what will you do?
I dont allow drowning in alcohols,
cause its a silly way to hide from reality.
In a dilemma, every now and then.

Lastly, i wanna meet you like so badly :/

2009-06-15T23:30:00.003+08:00

Flashbacks of memories.
Simple three words will do the job.
I just dont know what or how i should blog.
I'm sad, :/
simple enough? O:
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Saturday, had cousins coming to my house.
creating a mess in my room,
Oh, i finally packed my room, and i'm proud of myself.
Sunday, family day out with parents and irritating sister.
Went jurong point, had dianxiaoer.
I dont quite like the food lah, except the damn nice soup & duck :D.
Then went back to flowershop dont know for what.
waited for aunty jennifer,
went serangoon as she wanted to do some stuffs,
then headed to amk hub.
didnt manage to buy that heels ):
mum says it's white, and i'm gonna dirty it.
fine lor,
homed with nothing :/
i thought i could like go shopping, since my daddy's like finally on leave.
homed, tired ):

today, happy birthday cedric.
you're 15 and you're still so childish!
grow up laaaa :]
went ps, stayed in the arcade for the whole day?
hell, jingyi& me were like super bored.
Long bus rides home again,
with earpiece and emo musics,
not forgetting, flashbacks of memories.
I dont know what to say anymore,
I no longer feel the pain.
Its just those hardcore numbness that seriously killed me.
All i know is,
i'm missing you more each day :/
sighs, bye.

2009-06-12T23:43:00.004+08:00

Its been quite some time since I last updated about my life?
Had a yogurt competition yesterday.
Had been going back to school for the past few days to practice and improve.
Yesterday was the competition,
Today's the results.
Yeah, we've did well(:
Special thanks to Nicholas - the superb understanding leader who lets me to slack so much :D
Hehaho, reasons:
1) always overslept, go late nevermind,
2) i have a longer lunch break than the others!
3) i didnt do much things at all.
Ryan and Daryl - for coming up with the idea and doing the write-up.
Hehaho, sorry for being such a slacker :p
---
Congratulations to Terry's group for getting first :D.
Saw jiayu, dian, sally and jacklyn at the competition.
Didnt manage to win,
but at least we've got that precious experience (:
The process's rather fun.
:D

Yvonne and yuexuan came my house to slack :]
cause when i reach home,
i feel so lazy to get out of my house to go meet them,
& we're like going ps again.
so i'm like sian cause went yesterday.
sent that missy down to the bus stop,
insisting i wear that stupid "sleeping" attire down.
Bought milktea, homed.
Slacked with yvonne at my house,
watching videos and random craps.
Oh, and i need to pack my super ultra messy table,
Stacked with books, files and papers.
Gotta start with my holiday homeworks soooon :]
and my handwriting sucks like shitxz,
for i havent been writing. -.-
Hehaho,
Off to pack my things,
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (:

you're one in a million.
still, imissyou.
i've realised, you are still the one.

2009-06-12T00:44:00.000+08:00

I miss you, like oh so badly.
I miss your pampers.
I miss your hugs.
---

2009-06-07T16:52:00.005+08:00

Joey's sick D:
Going out with yuexuan and yvonne now.
night dinner with family at purmei.
Hehaho, will be back to update.
Byeeee (L).
-----

Well, first meet up with yvonne.
bused to queensway meet yuexuan.
Bought our things already,
we went to bukitmerah library.
yvonne wants to borrow books.
me and yuexuan sit inside library talk (:
Dad came to fetch us to purmei .
but alot people there,
so we went abc to eat.
after eating, brought food home.
Then, went shengsiong.
was bugging dad to buy absolute vodka,
he ignore me lor, then mum was telling me dont be a alcoholic freak.
but in the end, dad bought me e33.
Okay, SIAN.
but better than nothing.
I'm resisting the temptation of not drinking it now,
cause i'm sick :(
Down with flu and cough, my sore throat's gone.
sorry for not updating yesterday, i was abit lazy.

Today,
going out with clique later.
Its TWK's birthday!
Happy 15th , you retarded pig :D
dont be so retarded liao lah.
---
My nose superb blocked lah :(
Anyway, last night was conferencing halfway.
Then roy that pig went to sleep.
so i was talking to joel'mama about everything and anything.
Ended call and use com awhile more and slept :D.
---
yuexuan and yvonne came my house.
they were reading some stuffs with my com,
and laughing like nobody's business? (:
hehaho,
bused to purmei ,
surprise failed cause he's not at home but at grandma house.
passed him his cake and present :x
bused to tiong with weekeat and yvonne,
saw debraaaa ! :D.
meet up with shathish and mingduo.
met royston on mrt.
met xuke and joel at mrt station.
Outing's at west mall .
caught terminator, 4.30pm.
the show not bad lah,
had slight fever after the movie O:
arcaded, dinnered but i didnt eat.
homed, for dinner.
Thank god fever's gone.
- - - - -

Saturday;
Rayner's chalet was okay lah.
Not too little, not too many people.
LOL.
Meet up with hongjie at tiong.
Sorry for the wait, :]
then , trained and bused to downtown .
there's foongsze, leiting, joanne, huiling, rena, rayner, hongjie, janitra, bernard, dominic, john, jiajun, singwai, aaron, andre, clive, jerry, zonn, benjamin, zenhung, derrick, marcel and more.
Played daidi , slacked , chatted , ate.
Saw our school people, they're having drama chalet.
directly diagonally opposite rayner's chalet.
Laughs.
Had gastric till quite jialat,
feeling better when i reaching home.
Hongjie cabbed me home,
Thanks :}
Homed to sleep, X:

- No photos recently.
One, my eyebags are super scary now.
Two, lazy take photo.
Three, memory space going used up, cause insert more songs inside my phone.
Lastly, cause no photos lor, i dont feel like taking it.

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee {!}
Oh, and i've added three songs as my blogsongs.
Utada } Come back to me ,
Beyonce } Halo &
Leona Lewis } Here i am .

2009-06-05T00:25:00.002+08:00

HEY FUCK YOU FATHER .
I'M NOT YOUR PUNCHING BAG FOR GOODNESS SAKE.
EVERYTIME YOU DRUNK ,
EVERYTHING VENT ON ME.
FUCK YOU LAH HOR.
I GOT EMOTIONS ONE ALSO OKAY.
WHOLE FAMILY ALSO LIKE THAT,
SINCE I'M SUCH AN EYESORE,
ONE FINE DAY, I'LL JUST LEAVE THIS FUCK HOUSE -.-

sick of trying to be a good girl. cant you just understand me? you dont even know, the amount of tears i've cried at night silently.

2009-06-04T23:44:00.001+08:00

Outings today.
Starting, i got really pissed.
Waited for their movie to end, for close to 2 hours.
slacked around arcade, kopitiam with edmund, yuehan, kelvin and dont know who.
saw jueyu baby! :D.
miss her like oh so much? :(
then , saw isaac, weiliang, shermaine.
after their movie end,
went shathish house to slack,
was super seh :/
having gastric, so went kfc with yvonne.
edmund& co. came to find me awhile.
finish eating, went to look for royston& co.
then slacked around, arcade and etc.
homed at 9++.

Joey's falling sick.
Whole body weak, sore throat :/
lalala, she need rest.
Byeee, photos to be updated again.

2009-06-03T01:40:00.002+08:00

Here to blog about my day on tuesday !
Was learning some basics of dota from shat,
and then playing dota with him till four in the morning.
Woke at 2.30 in the afternoon,
Had nasi lemak as my brunch,
msn chat with friends, then dota again :x
went for a nap at 6 in the evening,
woke at about 7.30 ?
tved, bathed, dinnered.
back to com,
one round of dota with junda'emobudbud :D.
then msn chat again.
facebook, watch videos.
Joey's life is like that everyday.
How bored.

Oh, and junda says my eye bags are horrible.
Yeahyeah,
dont believe see my photos in my previous posts,
without make up cmi :/
gotta sleep more already,
Nights people.
its 1.45am now.
:D

2009-06-01T01:25:00.002+08:00

A day out with Royston, Xuke, Shathish, Yvonne.
Got woken up by shathish, in the morning.
Asking us to go makan at some restaurant?
Lol, met them at my bus stop.
Sorry for being late, hahaha !
Cabbed to tanglin mall, with royston, shathish & shathish's aunt.
Okay, the food is not bad lah.
Free flow of drinks,
so shathish and royston drank the strawberry lemonade like nobody's business.
Our bill was 75.90 i think?
But free of charge, cause the restaurant's first day, so yeah.
let customers try :D
shathish got the invitation, so hehaho.
---
Saw Debra' nutty :] :] :]
with her super cute bangs :D.

Bused to Shathish grandmother house,
waited for him change to shorts and slippers.
AND LOL !
his dog, keep hump-ing royston.
Damn joke lah!
Mucho's a horny dog -.-
---
Bused to tiong,
met up with yvonne and xuke.
xuke went to pierce his lips.
WTH , I'M JEALOUS ):
hehaho ,
went arcade, played basketball.
POOR SHATHISH LOST TO ME TWICE.
saw kelvin :x
bused to safra, for pool.
Homed at 8 plus.
Lived without dinner today :(
---
Photos below.
Enjoy, Bye! :d.

2009-05-28T20:44:00.005+08:00

Today's a damnit boring day!
John pon school again,
Reynold pon school also i think.
My class only had 23 pathetic students.
SHOULDNT HAVE GONE TODAY, I SWEAR -.-
some stupid tour today, that we're not interested.
its damn hot, and damn tiring.
took quite a lot photos today?
Went old parliament house, singapore river, fort canning.
others i cannot remember.
Back to school at around 12.30?
Went tiong for lunch with yvonne, joel, royston and xuke.
Shattish came after that.
Longjohn-ed :)
Jueyu came to look for me,
its been so long since i last saw her can.
While waiting for bus, saw aloysius.
Bused home with him.
Went home, had a nap. :D
I SERIOUSLY NEED NAPS EVERYDAY ,
sleeping's like the best damn thing to do.
OKAY, I'M NOT A PIG HOR.
tomorrow sports carnival; inter-class.
MrChong says: " if you all never win, when school starts, all detention one week. "
Laughs.

Okay, Photos.
Here's only what i've got.
I'm waiting for more from mathan :D
Candid shots! :]
Hoho, off to sleep now.
Bye <3.

2009-05-27T23:17:00.003+08:00

Today, i skipped school.
Didnt go for dragon boat, was super bored at home!
Had my breakfast.
was texting with people who pon school too,
such as John, Calvin X: hahaha
and naughty people, who went school and using phone,
such as Andre, Reynold, Yuexuan, Jiankun, Royston, Kelvin, Para, Junda.
I'm going off to bathe now then go meet yuexuan.
Hoho, outings today.
Will be back to update,
Hopefully there's pictures today :]

Edited----------x
in the end, didnt meet yuexuan.
met yvonne.
hoho, vincent's sleeping still lor.
then went queensway,
bused to bugis ; shopped :D
Bought new wallet and eyeliner and sex bands :p :p
then bused to peninsula,
yvonne bought her hoodie,
rather nice lor, i choose de :D
hohoho,
then bused home.
on the way home,
vincent then wake up.
Pro lurhs :X
School tomorrow, sianxzxz -.-
music-ed, sort out thoughts, camwhored.
Joey's BROKE D:

Here are the photos ,

2009-05-26T23:25:00.005+08:00

Hoho,
Parents meeting .
expected what Mr Chong will say already.
After that,
went to eat 麦当当 with daddy and mummy at tiong :D
i bet sister is super jealous :'p
After that,
Daddy sent me home.
Slept all the way from 12pm to 6.30pm , :]
woke up for dinner, and etc.
Skipped lunch, so was very hungry.
Used computer, Facebook/Bloghopped/Msnchat <3.

2009-05-25T23:22:00.006+08:00

As a promise,
here are the photos taken yesterday at sentosa :]
People who went: Joey, Hiumun, Audrey, Diana, Brenna, Jingyi, Kym, Priya, Wanying.
Marx, Zan, David, Bryan, Kenneth, Benedict, Rafael.
Other groups: Joel, Royston, Chester, Xuke.
Met: Yuexuan, Yvonne, Jillene.

Dearest Marx'mehmeh.
Bestest listener,
Bestest friend :D.

Dearest Audrey'S-xpartner!
Happy Birthday :]

Dearest Priya'Sister.
Loveyou!
Last long with that stupid rafael.

Dearest Diana'Precious.
My most huggable bearbear!
<3.

Dearest Hiumun'Hubby.
I know you love to hear my stories :D.
Dearest Kym'Daughter.
Though i'm not as close with you,
Last long with D. :]
Dearest Brenna'Leslie.
Go love your K lah! :p
Dearest Jingyi'Shagua.
Hohoho, i'm getting closer with you.
Bendan爱Shagua.

Dearest Yuexuan'Honey.
Best listener, Best partner <3.
Usual Clique.

Honey & Dear.
Yvonne'Dear,
Girl next door,
Classmates,
Dear :D

------
Zilians ,
My sunburn-ed back :/

Like fire red,
Not as tanned as hweeying yet!
HENG!

Pink Shades! :]

2009-05-24T22:50:00.002+08:00

Slept at 2 plus in the morning last night,
was damnit tired.
6 hours of sleep only.
woke up at 8+ to prepare.
sorry royston and joel and other people,
for making you guys wait. :X
hahaha, 9.30 , and i reached at 10.
sorry lah, i'm the 迟到 queen x:

met joel and royston at candy empire,
went food republic to meet the rest.
tram-ed to sentosa :D.
went siloso beach,
borrow brenna's sunglasses, cause mine's pink and its weird on me uh? :x
Around 12 plus, went out to vivo with jingyi to find jillene.
Got audrey's present for her and went giant to get some drink,
we're super thirsty eh?
Tram-ed back to sentosa.
Walked a long distance, damn hot.
But, i wanted to tan :D.
sat under the sun ALONE to tan,
the rest dont want pei me.
while those who were playing in the water are washing up.
I sat under the hot sun and tan :D.
was watching a group of hot angmoh guys play volleyball.
then they're like short of players and asked us wanted to play not.
then we're like we dont know how, and they offered to teach us.
Laughs, brenna's like saying:
" if they more muscular, jiu really damnit hot liao. "
Hahaha, then left sentosa at about 3++ ?
tram-ed back to sentosa.
Went carls junior to look for joel, royston, xuke and chester.
met up with yvonne and yuexuan.
went to walk around , slacked , arcade .
first meal for the day, 6++ in the evening: Long John Silvers .
Surprising i'm not so so hungry.
Hoho, went to skygarden to slack till 840.
bused home with yvonne.
Here i'm blogging.
Took quite a lot of photos today,
Oh, i've got sunburn! :/
Photos to be updated soon , :]

2009-05-19T23:41:00.000+08:00

A total failure,
A total disappointment,

2009-05-18T19:49:00.003+08:00

Mentally Tired :/
Got back chemistry, maths, hmt, english paper two today.
Chemistry and maths total screwed up.
Gotta hand in my late late late decision making to mrs anthony tomorrow,
or i only get one mark, and its gonna suck lots.
But, i'm very tired. O:
School Life's Screwed Up like ....

2009-05-17T23:27:00.011+08:00

A Sudden Emptiness.
lost of words.
---
Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

Rotted at home today,
Mood spoiled, Dinner screwed.
Bye.

2009-05-17T02:22:00.006+08:00

Sorry people,
havent been updating uh?
I miss blogging badly too.
Lets start from Wednesday- 130509,
After the super long papers,
Went queensway with yuexuan, hweeying, yvonne, shengying & jingyi for lunch.
Then met Vincent on cab,
Went out with Jiankun & co.
Went gwc and bugis,
Homed at about 8.
175-ed ; Long bus ride home alone <3.
Surprisingly, my mood wasnt really affected,
except during the bus ride home, alone.

Thursday - 140509,
Physics paper totally screwed up.
Lalas, Ended school super early today.
Went lunching with girlfriends at tiong.
Went somewhere with edrick , sq and girlfriends :X
Send yuexuan to queensway bus stop, then crossed over wait for 195 back home.
That stupid ass, reached home liao, resting.
and left the two of us at the bus stop waiting for bus.
Stupid honey :x
Went home bathed, prepared :D.
waited for yvonne and yuexuan to come my house.
Hohoho, bused to gwc meet vincent and co.
Something happened, so yeah. went walking around first.
Slacked awhile at gwc, then bused to ps.
Yvonne send yuexuan to mrt station,
went arcade, arcade, arcade.
Then walked around ps with yvonne, cause we're getting super bored at arcade.
Headed to cathay, then decided not to watch movie anymore.
Back to ps, slacked around in the supermarket.
Then left with yvonne, 175-ed to gwc, 16-ed to tiong.
Went tiong, bought sushi. Homed at 10+++ going 11 :X
Dead Beat.
Tomorrow's listening, need to reach school only at 9.45.
Tomorrow morning meeting girlfriends for breakfast at queensway.
HoHoHo.
Camwhored alot alot today. :D.
hahaha, photos at the end of this post. (:

Friday - 150509.
Woke up at 8.
Wash up, Bathed.
Met yvonne at my house.
Hahaha, sorry for always being the late one ! (: (: (:
Bused to queensway meet honey.
Just realise sy & jingyi not coming, went mac look for char and danyu.
Chatted a while, then bused to school.
Listening compre was okayokay.
And i find it super stupid, go school for 30 mins -.-
Went tiong with girlfriends, had mac.
Bused home. waited for yuexuan, yvonne and hweeying to reach my house.
Camwhored at bus stop. woah ! :D.
Bused to safra, played pool.
EmoBudBud came later on.
then something happened, i dont want to elaborate.
One, made me damnit pissed off -.-
Two, made me super paiseh. cause yx they all keep disturbing me -.-
After that, emobudbud went hongsheng's house for bbq.
the rest of us headed for dinner.
ate cheese fries ! <3
then back to safra for swingswing, (:
Walked to next bus stop, cause got more bus.
and honey got bus home.
Homed at about 9+++.

Saturday - 160509
Work up at 2 in the afternoon,
slept at four last night.
My whole body's aching like mad.
Quickly rushed to the toilet and prepare,
dont wanna be late, cause i'm working at 2.30.
Lunch was fried kuayteow from my favourite stall, :D.
Worked till about 4.30?
Headed home, change my heels to flats cause i realise no tall people going out later.
I'm the tallest already, Yuexuan already so short :x :x
Hahaha, bused to purmei.
Drank vanilla milkshake like finally!
and, very long never go visit aunty le. :X
met jueyu, then chatted awhile at shop with aunty.
Went court, went back shop and i went off.
Bused to queensway, changed 51.
met honey and char on bus to bugis.
Walked walked around,
Ohoh, edmund & co. are there too.
Btw, thanks Edmund pig! :D.
hahaha, then arcade-d! :X
headed for our dinner at soup spoon.
Then to streets to shop.
Bought yuexuan's stuffs,
and bought eyelash ! :D.
Accompany char to wait for bus home,
supposed to send her home, but rather late already.
then left with honey to the bus stop behind junction.
175 again, yay. Long journey home alone .
OHOH , AND A FAT MAN STEPPED ON MY TOE.
DAMN PAIN LOR. ):
Bus was empty, and cold. <3
Homed at 10+++ going 11 ?
I'm damnit hungry ):
Had dinner at 12 plus.
Was playing RC and chatting on msn.
Created a new quiz again, hah!
Slept at 3++ (:

~~Photos to be uploaded, real sooon (:~~ Photos Uploaded (:

2009-05-13T23:08:00.003+08:00

I'm so not your puppet okay,
Dont treat me like your punching bag,
you not happy, you come scold and blame me for everything.
I was on phone at living room only, you come kp.
say what, want leave move out of the house, go ahead.
since you so unhappy, tell me okay. just tell me.
i'll just leave.
i'm a human being, with emotions, problems and feelings.
stop showing all your attitudes at me, -.-
and C , you're seriously pissing me off.
i swear okay, dont test my patience you ass.

i know i shouldnt do this,
but i cant stand it anymore okay.
last paper liao also want nag.
go out tomorrow also want complain this and that.
what's wrong with you?
before exam you let me go out like siao,
after exam you locking me up like some jailbird.
haywire, seriously, gone haywire.

Standing at the end of the cliff,
I was wondering when i will just take one more step ahead,
and keep falling, falling and falling.
till i drop dead on the ground,
and end this fucked up life.
No, i told myself i cant.
Gotta get over all this damn obstacles that is corrupting my life.
I must stay strong and overcome everything.
I will get back my happiness, my freedom.
I dont need anyone to judge me.
Shhhhh, :x
---
Friends(?)
I feel like there's an invisible far far distance in between us.
Maybe, we aint realising it.
I'm loss of words.
Speechless.

2009-05-12T18:57:00.001+08:00

Many thoughts racing through my mind.
我的错 , 我不配 .
i need a break,
i want time alone.
i need to sort things out,
i want to get rid of everything in my head.

2009-05-11T02:55:00.006+08:00

Happy Mothers' Day oh!
bad hair day today! ):
---
woke up at 11++ , feelings super duper tired.
Replied messages, then went online.
was damn hungry so quickly went to makan (:
After eating, chatted awhile on msn and went to bathe.
Did everything, preparing to go out.
Firstly, went to flower shop collect flowers.
headed to godmother's house to give her flower and wish her happy mothers' day.
then to safra, cause stupid sister want swim.
Looked for singwai at pool, he's with terrence and some unknowns.
Waited for them to go, then open new table.
Laughs, today kena owned dont know how many times lor.
Stupid, really cannot wear contacts play pool.
Then went purmei .
Hohoho, had dinner at greatgrandmother's house.
I shall not elaborate more on what pissed me off afterwards.
Having headache then,
Dad send me to ps.
meet up with vincent and co.
was seeing all of them play maximun tune eh?
headed on to chinatown,
then back to ps again x:
arcade again , wuuu. :x
Homed at about 11.20 ?
TIME NOW : 3:04AM.
MOOD NOW : TIRED,
FEELING NOW : HUNGRY.
CONDITION NOW : EYES PAIN, NECK ACHES.

End of blogging, Bye.
Tomorrow going nanny house with adelyne oh ! :D.
gonna send belated mother days' present also,
and and, studygroup :D.
sweeeeeeet aye.
Gtg, Bye! (: (:

p/s. i want a new blogskin.
p/s/s. i will be changing my blogsong.
p/s/s/s. i love blogging ! :D.

今天看见你, 感觉怪怪的.
好想放弃, 但一见到你的感觉我无法形容.
i told myself, not to be affected.
i took another glance at you from the top,
and i just walk away, into the house.
I cant afford the second glance, though i really wished to.
I feel empty, suddenly.
I feel out of breath, suddenly.
i need to face reality, face the fact that you're gone and no longer here.
Stop dreaming, you stupid fool.
Wake up, he's gone.

2009-05-09T23:49:00.003+08:00

( Roses for valentines,? )

woke up at 1++ this afternoon, close to 2 already.
was damnit tired :/
Anyway, last night forget off com jiu sleep le. :X :X
Sorry people who talked to me, haha!
Time really flies today okay!
Met up with friends at Bm.
Saw many familiar faces at mac aye.
wanted to go library.
forgot that today's public holiday, the library closed -.-
slacked at playground.
Headed home, slacked.
Waited for my food to be bought back.
Tv-ed, Chatted on phone, Computer - RCed! :D.
Slept at around 3 again,
Though very tired, but keep tahan until neckache then sleep.
Hah, updated :D.
i just saved as draft cause typed halfway.
In case you dont know me, I'm lazy! Hahaha(:

2009-05-08T23:49:00.006+08:00

我会学着放弃你，
是因为我太爱你 .
- - -

didnt went ecp in the end.
Went safra to play pool with weekeat, hweeying, mingduo and calvin.
Hahaha, Mingduo eh.
We've got some inside jokes today. :D.
After that, went great world with calvin meet friends.
Walked walked around,
Slacked.
Arcade, Mac, Cold storage, 7-11.
Dinner was instant noodles, cause sian of food already.
Bused home,
Slept at 3 in the morning :D.
Heeees.

'because at the thoughts of you, tears started to flow.
to see how fast time flies.
to remember how sweet and nice everything was going on,
then suddenly, everything ended with a goodbye.
yeah, i know you wont be back anymore.
why still hold on,
hais, cause its hard to let go.
its hard to love someone you dont love,
yet its harder to preted to dont love someone that you really love.
letting go's real hard, agree?
because, memories will keep flashing back.
XoXo, wild thoughts.
Blahs.

2009-05-07T21:25:00.004+08:00

我发现自己一天比一天更累 .

Exams already started, few papers have gone.
I cant seem to find the MOTIVATION to revise.
Nothing's going into my head.
Always feeling so tired, thought a nap would be an ideal choice.
No, it sucks, seriously a bad choice.
'Cause when i wake up, headache's killing me.
I've been having neck aches,
Havent been sleeping enough,
'Cause i've been trying to study, burning midnight oil.
I wont let it get over me.
Stop this shit, Stop those empty feelings.
I wont let my emotions get over me,
I've been reflecting about life over these few days.
Sighhhh,
I'll better start revising,
Somehow, i had a feeling i'll retain or drop. :/
No lunch , No dinner ; but i still feel full. :D.
I need to motivate myself now, Bye.

EastCoastPark tomorrow, anyone? O:

2009-05-06T21:25:00.002+08:00

(in love with ♥Music).
I kinda screwed up my paper today.
Was very tired, and having neck aches.
English paper 2 is still okay,
Chinese Compo screwed, Chinese GongHan screwed.
GG man, -.-
After school, slacked awhile in school.
Went harbourfront with mingduo, calvin and weekeat.
Had pastamania AGAIN for lunch -.-
Then janitra, jianhui and jueyu came.
~~Studied~~ at mac,
Was slacking like nobody's business cause i dont have the motivation.
Homed, and slept.
Headache still :/
Neck aches since monday.
Havent been sleeping well D:
Haiiiii.
I seriously need to drink coffee every morning,
Or i'll really die during exams.
Tomorrow's SS and Maths paper one.
GoodLuck to me, i'm gonna die definately.
after ss, there's 1hr 30 mins break till maths paper one.
Idk for what lah, stupid.
just end school early like will die liddat -.-
---
Ask me out tomorrow after school if you want.
Off to at least study a little.
Byeeee,

I've been giving people motivation,
I've been asking people to jiayou, study hard.
Yet, i dont seem to have the urge.
Laughs,
Nevermind, I'll get M-O-T-I-V-A-T-I-O-N.
I'll keep my promise to show results.
Man, i dont want to drop HMT.
Useless Freak,

2009-05-05T21:54:00.003+08:00

Woke up kinda late this morning,
Very Very Very Tired.
I HAD A DAMN BAD MOOD.
A bad day today , i swear.
Last night, i slept without my blanket,
Wake up damnit cold ,
Having neck aches ):
Early morning, i nearly fell in the toilet.
Early morning, my mother showed me attitude.
Early morning, my grandfather told me off for nothing.
Early morning, i dropped my earpiece and nearly lost them
Early morning when i reach school,
i got caught by MrOng for not tying hair.
when he says okay, and i want to go off.
MrLo stops me and say: " your fringe".
In the middle of nowhere, i swear its damnit embarrassing.
In class, very very very tired and hungry :/
I cant stand it especially during maths,
I was holding the pen and pressing hard against the paper, sleeping.
LOL.
And grats to me, Maths for MYE is all about whole of sec 2 work.
And DAMN, i slacked the whole of past two years.
Skipped recess for some reasons,
Only drank a can of lemon tea.
Got back my lit test, and i failed.
For this whole year, i only passed one lit test.
How pathetic.
LOL .
As usual, plugging in earpiece during lessons except literature and chemistry.
slacked in school for awhile,
homed, bathed, charged phone, sleep awhile, Rc-ed awhile.
Went out to meet jueyu at bm.
Edmund , kelvin ting came.
KelvinYeo came to pass me things, and went off to look for weijie.
We headed to purmei afterwards.
Then went hillock, sit swingswing.
Was very seh since i left house.
Headache plus Feel like vomiting, -.-
And that damn edmund pushed my head, sucker right.
Finally drank my favourite vanilla milkshake.
Dad came to fetch me afterwards.
Heee, I'm off for my dinner.
Byeeeeee.
Off to private blog after eating :D.

I'm not emotional, i guess.
I just hate myself.
LJY please cheer up, lovechuxz k.
Janitra'Taoeh is jioing me for drinking.
Laughs, june holidays okay!
(L), thanks for everything.
Its just, 我不配.

2009-05-04T22:15:00.004+08:00

(* inserts ~~photo~~ here!)
i'm starting to hate school D:
It was raining quite heavily early this morning.
Was abit drenched and yeah, suckxzxz ):
its monday, and lessons are really long.
very tired and having bodyaches.
I'm having some kind of moodswing today D:
and having stomach cramps, or rather gastric,
cause i skipped dinner and breakfast.
I didnt finish eating my recess.
After school, went tiong with xuan, sy & hweeying.
Had griller, didnt eat cause i dont feel like.
and gastric's killing me.
A bowl of mushroom soup's my meal :D.
homed, feeling very very tired :/
Haiiiii,
Went ~~study~~ slacking, and homed.
I'm having bad moodswings, sigh D:
More at private blog,
Bye.

Patrick'Brother complains i never blog about him
here it goes.
I'm suppose to buy him as my pet in facebook from sandra everytime.
there's a reason behind it of cause.
How nice of brother to ask me out for a drink after my exams.
Hah, see how first bah.
STRESSED :/

2009-05-03T23:19:00.003+08:00

(inlovewithreynold'sCAP)
Heeee, i got the urge to buy cap right now. :D.
I'm very very happy today, idk why.
Firstly, i bought the perfume <333.
Secondly, i played parapara and finally passed the song i always fail.
Thirdly, i was reflecting back about the feeling when i was drunk.
Then i suddenly very high, LOL !
---
went studying with singwai, kelvin, reynold, yuexuan, yvonne, calvin :D.
Harbourfront mac is damn cold okay!
Remember bring jacket next time.
reminded kelvin & singwai to take jacket,
but both also say nehmind lah , dont need.
End up just sit down nia, down there yaya say where got cold.
after finishing their food only,
" eh , quite cold leh "
Throughout all act one strong,
I ask: " eh, very cold ah? go outside walkwalk or buy hot milo or something lah. "
Singwai & Kelvin reply: " where got cold! so hot sia. "
And they're hugging their bag.
LOL !
reynold's lucky cause he havent reach and i reminded him to bring.
Saw janitra :D.
went challenger, bought reynold's PINK earpiece.
headed to guardian to buy lotion and perfume :D :D :D
then we went longjohn, some of them want eat dinner :'p
after dinner, we went arcade.
saw someone dance till damnit funny okay.
we're like all laughing, hahaha.
he's damn good at shaking his butt uh X: X:
Homed afterwards,
Daddy fetched me home :D
TADA,
RESTAURANT CITY IS FUN <3.
okay, tomorrow still got school.
NIGHTS !

2009-05-02T23:58:00.002+08:00

Today,
suppose to go out for movie, end up everyone's not in the mood and want to go home early.
met up with yuexuan and yvonne at bugis.
sorry for the wait aye.
You'd know i'm always late :x
Went to walk around to shop for clothes.
OKAY , I SERIOUSLY WANT TO GO SHOPPING DURING JUNE HOLIDAYS.
my clothes are like so limited?
haha, or maybe i sian of them already :X
Bought black flipflop with honey :D.
Then went bhg & og to look for perfume, cant find O:
went around junction to walk walk.
Laugh, i want buy that silkygirl perfume D:
dont want addidas de liao :X
Hahaha,
went to buy drink at coldstorage as bubble tea alotalot people.
OKAY THE CASHIER IS DAMN NOOB OKAY.
AND TAKES HER OWN SWEET TIME ._.
trained home with yuexuan,
Alighted at tiong at 1195-ed home.
charged phone,
went to tiong meet isaac, booncong and shawn.
they're dinnering.
wanted to study, but end up they not studying so didnt study.
went to wash photos , walk around and homed. :D.
i'm in love with the silkgirl' Wish perfume smell lah (: (: (:
i'm addicted to playing restaurant city :X
Off to private blog :D.
Byeee,

2009-05-02T02:39:00.002+08:00

Its going to be three in the morning in twenty mins time.
Haiii ,
Parents came home today.
They're talking about what happened in malaysia.
Yeah, i know i didnt attend.
But they keep saying and saying about it the moment they reach home.
Even during dinner time, O:
This is one of my regret for not going back to see her the last time okay.
How i wished i've been there,
Especially when you all told me almost everyone attended.
Even those who stay veryvery far away.
And those cousins whom i've not seen for years are there too.
So what if next year's chinese new year we're going back or something,
I wont get to see grandma, anymore.

2009-05-01T02:26:00.006+08:00

Cramps killing me, D:
Update tomorrow, ):
---
Had english paper one today,
I kinda screw up my proposal writing,
My format's wrong.
Composition, i chose the topic : Describe a situation when you're a victim of unfairness.
I didnt know how to start, and i didnt know how to end.
Crapped alot i guess, hope i didnt go out of point.
After paper one was Chinese, then recess.
Had 3 periods of F&N with that bitch teacher.
Hate the way she look at people, she thinks so highly of herself lor.
Then english, okay that was boring.
I was half asleep though.
Went to have lunch at dawson with Dee'nutty :D.
Okay, the JK crusine aint so nice.
Homed after wards :D.
Went home to sleep cause i was very very very tired, and headache :/
And that cramps is killing me D:
Haiiiii ,
Went to tiong to study with isaac'daddy and booncong at Mac.
Reached home at about 10+.
Okay then, My internet's SCREWED UP.
I'm so pissed off.
Had to try alot alot of times.
Since 11++ i've been trying to get the internet , till 4++ then i got it.
WTH RIGHT.

Okay, i missed my blog badly.
I'm seriously gonna die without blogging for a day D:
BodyAches, Cramps today.
I fell asleep just now, O:
Okay, i know pig.
But i very very very tired D:
Out to study, 7 to bball at court.
Be right back to update.
Lovexzxzxz :D.

Went safra to pool with john, rayner and co.
Bused to purmei afterwards.
Dinner with parents,
Tiong-ed , saw isaac daddy.
Had venezia :D.
Homed, (:
and haiiiii, my knee injury came back D:
was hoping to see you but you aint there ):

By the way,
Happy 15th ZanTWJ ' Ultraman.
Its been kinda long since i really chat with you.
Anyway, Jiayou for MYE :D.

2009-04-29T17:10:00.004+08:00

I'm at home right now,
Brought all my books and files home.
I swear they're heavy !
Carried in a box,
Went tiong for lunch at longjohn with yvonne.
Homed after that,
Was closing my eyes on bus lor,
Very tired :/
I'm going to bathe, and then meet janitra and jianhui to study at 6,
I cant be late before that bitch gonna's kill me.
Will be back home to update,
Bye.

I'm tired.
Yeah, i gotta start mugging real hard already.
I feel like releasing some stress first, O:
Friday sentosa, anyone? :/
I feel like going labrador park,
I want to go henderson wave,
I miss playing pool,
I miss playing basketball,
I feel like sleeping forever,
I want to go Malaysia right now. ):

Edited-------x
Sighs, i wanna go malaysia.
I want see grandmother for the last time :/
Hais,
I felt so unfilial.
Drowning in my own thoughts of life again,
Tears kept flowing and flowing.
Yeah i admit i got temptation for penknives.
But i know, i cant and i wont.
Thank god i've no penknives at home.
I gotta control my emotions.
Hais,
Tomorrow's the cremation already.
I miss you like so much,
Hais.
I miss G'~~brother~~ who used to be there for me, to lend me listening ear and cheering me.
However, you've left my life already.
You wont even bother i supposed?
Doubt you will even come my blog.

2009-04-28T22:16:00.005+08:00

我真的好累.
---

Had chinese oral today,
I think i didnt screw it up, but i crapped alot.
After oral, was happily walking out of indoor sports hall.
Then i came to know, my grandmother passed away.
Mum messaged me, O:
Sigh, you're the third person who left me this year already.
But, its better for you i guess.
You've been suffering for quite a period of time already.
Sorry that i couldnt attend your funeral,
I wasnt allowed to.
I really wished to go, cause its the last time that i'll see you.
Tell me why.
Sorry, Sorry, Sorry for all the wrong things i've done.
Sorry for always making you angry when i was younger, fooling around.
Sorry for always being so naughty and causing trouble for you.
Two years back, you're down on bed, not being able to walk or whatever anymore.
You cant even recognise who am i.
Yet now, when i was hoping that you'll call my name again,
Yet now, when i was hoping that you'll nag at me to get me to eat my breakfast when i go back for holidays,
Yet now, when i was hoping that you'll just take the cane and chase me and the other cousins around and hitting us for being naughty,
Yet now, when i was hoping to call you again,
Yet now, when i was hoping to see you again,
You're no longer around anymore.
I havent been able to attend the three funerals, :/
I really want to just take a last glance at you all, before bading goodbye.
I havent seen cousin for two years, and he just left.
I havent seen uncle for one year, and he just left.
I havent seen grandmother for one year plus, and you just left today.
Why must i have my exams on thursday,
Why must the cremation be on thursday, :/
Tell me why all these are happening,
everything's not at the right timing at all.
I've no mood to study today, hais.
- - -
Exams coming,
I'm feeling very stress.
I dont want to fail, I must get above all my expectation.
Haiiiiiii , but i feel so tired, tired of everything.
Next to private blog, O:
I dont feel like blogging anymore for the day.
Haiiiiii ,

Priya, rest well.
Faster recover from DF.
Lovexzxzxz,

2009-04-27T22:38:00.003+08:00

100th Post :D.
Its monday.
Lessons are soooo boring, and long.
School sucks on monday.
Was having bad headache last night till now.
Now i'm seriously moodless, cause the headache's pissing me off :/
Oh, i forgot to mention that assembly is so freaking long okay,
Damnit hot, plus Damnit tired.
Had some dj(s) coming for assembly.
It ended around 3.30, okay by then i'm very very very hungry & the headache's killing me already.
Still gotta stay on for the camp thingy.
And that instructor keep asking us to do 55 claps , LOL.
Okay, homed straight away with yvonne after handling up my homework.
Lunch was at 5++ at coffeeshop,
Went home bathed and slept, hoping that my headache will get better.
But nothing's curing it.
Dinner at 10,
Time to update private blog & mug.
Bye.

Oh btw, priya rest well. <3.

2009-04-26T12:12:00.003+08:00

Its 27th tomorrow, :/
My blog's dead without updating,
Okay, i was dying to blog everyday but i was just too tired :/
Damn , camp's coming real sooon D:
27-29 may , at indonesia ; karimun island. D:
I dont wanna go, Sighs.
Tuesday's chinese oral. :X :X

Saturday;
went studying with jueyu, janitra, shawn, jasmine, qiaoting & two other i dont know their names,
at Harbourfront mcd.
Was rather cold, though with jacket on.
I've understand poa and i'm like so happy?
Except bank reconciliation.
After studying, all getting no motivations around 6.
so decided to go play pool,
homed at 8.
Was rather tired, :/

Sunday;
met yuexuan and calvin at bugis,
cause calvin wants to see his stuffs.
Couldnt find, and jingyi's waiting for us at her bus stop for kinda long already?
and it was pouring quite heavily.
So cabbed to vivo, and fetch jingyi up from her bus stop on the way.
Met jueyu at bus stop,
Had pastamania for lunch at about 4++ ,
I've got the wrong order ):
Went to mcd to study again,
This time was maths.
Study till about 7,
Jiankun, vincent came.
Okay, we had fun disturbing jiankun :x
Walked around vivo,
Bused to safra pool again.
Thanks calvin for your cab-ride home.
was very very hungry , cause i didnt take my dinner D:
Headacheee, ):

Photos next :x

2009-04-24T23:33:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry, :/
I would like to have sorry pill(s),
and give it to everyone whom i owe an apology.
Sorry Especially to:
You, Jueyu, Reynold, Rayner, Yolanda, Ischelle, Debra,
Yuexuan, Hweeying, Yvonne, Shengying,
Yihan, Patrick, Junda, Janitra, Marcus, Evan, Gabriel,
Audrey, Brenna, Diana, Hiumun, Wanying, Jillene, Jingyi, Priya, Kym,
Rafael, Kevin, Isaac, Ashraf, Marx, Kenneth, Desmond,
Daniel, Vincent, Mingduo, and manymanymany more.
Sorry for all the wrong things i've done.
Sorry for those bad temper and attitudes.
Sorry for every little mistake i've did.
---
Sigh, my eyes are sore after a long cry.
My head's aching after pondering over stuffs for so long.
I'm tired, really tired.
I need to get some rest,

2009-04-23T21:13:00.002+08:00

I WASNT IN THE WRONG OKAY,
STOP BLAMING ME FOR THINGS I DIDNT DO OKAY.
I'VE BEEN TOLERATING,
I JUST CANT STAND IT ANYMORE.
I JUST MERELY SHOOT BACK, I GOT AH.
AND YOU JUST STARTED SCREAMING EVERYTHING AT ME.
SAYING WHAT YOU FAILED AS A HUMAN,
BLAHBLAH SHIT,
SAY YOU ARE NOT NEEDED AT ALL .
BLAHBLAH SHIT.
WHATTHEHELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?
I WANTED TO SPILL MY HEART OUT, BUT I DECIDED TO KEEP IT TO MYSELF.
I'M GONNA SCREAM HERE:
YOU ARE THE ONE THE FAMILY NEEDS.
I'M JUST A FUCKING USELESS PIECE OF SHIT WHO ALWAYS GET THE BLAME UH?
IF ONE WERE TO LEAVE, I CHOOSE TO GO.
- - -

Forget it, I'm mentally tired now.
Bye.

2009-04-22T23:57:00.005+08:00

How does it feels like, to be looked down on?
That feeling definitely sucks okay,
Tired of trying to explain things,
Tired of trying to explain that i'm not at fault.
I'm getting used of getting blamed already, then come seek for my forgiveness.
I was just merely tired, dont feel like writing.
So i typed out the composition and printed it out.
You claimed that I took everything from the internet,
and just told the whole class blahblahblah.
When i put in the effort to do your damn homework,
This is what i get huh?
Why should i bother wasting my time, and having late nights just to complete it?
So in your eyes, I'm those typical student who cant study uh?
Those typical student who is destined to fail yah?
You didnt say that, but your actions tell me so.
You said, ask me redo in class.
I remember, and then you told another student saying that you didnt, you just merely asked me to write it out in my own handwriting.
Oh please, so what if you're a teacher?
When i dont put in the effort, your reaction's like: " can you please just do your homework? its for your own good, not me. "
When i put in the effort, you suspect me for copying and pasting what's found in the net.
Fine then, so you're expecting me to present you with failure results uh?
I felt so totally disgusted at your act.
& I dont want you to talk to me in class, trying to explain things.
I would not give a damn thought about it.
Yeah, thanks for saying those hurtful words, in class in front of everybody. Thanks so much , _______.

I'm extremely tired today,
Thanks for making me lose my mood to revise for my physics test.
I'm gonna fail badly, i swear.
Homed straight after school,
As yuexuan was talking to me on phone, tears just start to flow out?
I just feel so tired of everything.
Oh yeah, english composition topic was on Loneliness.
Perfect topic for me to express everything.
Went home bathe, and left home.
Met shengying, yuexuan, kym & jingyi at bugis bus stop.
Shengying's house is so damnit wulu can.
Being their guinea pigs, trying out their dishes for tomorrow's exam.
Laughs, her house damnit style okay!
Her house everywhere also big, except kitchen.
Then they're like doing their music project,
I was the extra of cause.
But i was of a great help lor.
Dark alleys, Banglahs everywhere.
Had talks with yuexuan on the way home on bus.
Reached home about 10++ going 11.
Was very very tired :/.
We're like worming our way out, trying to look for bus stops.
Decided not to take short cuts through those dark alleys,
cause its dangerous :x
Thanks Marx for guiding us to the bus stop on phone.
I'm off to bed now,
Byeeeee.

and gabriel'brother is gone,
no one to crap with me,
no one to hear me rant anymore.
p/s. sorry V`darling.

" Action speaks louder than words. "
Quote from yuexuan's message today.

2009-04-21T23:37:00.003+08:00

To you :
So what if you're my father?
I've tolerate enough already okay.
You get drunk outside, and have a bad mood.
You reached home, and start to shout & scold me for nothing?
What's wrong with you?
I'm just doing my homework lor.
I'm not your punching bag for you to vent your anger okay.
You think only you bad mood meh,
So you very big huh?
Just cause you're my dad, you can just scold and shout at me anytime you like is it?
I didnt even do anything,
You just come into my room , and rant all your nonsense.
" Mai ga limbei kaopei kaobu hor. "
Eh, who's the one who started it ?
I've enough already okay, everytime you get drunk,
you do this to me huh? -.-

PLEASE OKAY, THINK -.-
YOU DONT EVEN UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL .
ONE DAY, IF I WERE TO GO MISSING,
I SHALL SEE IF YOU REALLY CARE OR NOT.

2009-04-21T19:35:00.002+08:00

如果不是因为太过在乎，
就不会害得自己那么辛苦。
如果不是因为常常隐藏真正的自己，
就不会害得自己那么悲哀。
要不是为了不让任何人看到自己弱的一面，
就不会一直假装自己很坚强，很开心。
慢慢地，我发觉自己真的累了。
每天早上，害怕睁开眼睛，对上学产生了一种恐惧。
每天晚上，讨厌回到那空空荡荡的家，累了、却还需要被错怪。
- - -

Mr Tan has gave up on class 3D i supposed,
After teaching what he has prepared for today's lesson,
he asked: any questions? No?
And he just walked out of the class even though lessons have not end.
We dont even need to greet him.
:/
Was very tired past few days,
as i had insufficient sleep due to homeworks.
Today, had headache again.
Felt so seh, almost like fainting.
I'm too tired to care about anything already.
Gonna go update private blog,
and start homeworking.
Bye.

Tired of hiding my true self,
I swear i'm really very tired already.
I seriously need a break,
Before i cant take it, and break down.
I dont want to fail for any subjects,
I dont want to be looked down.
Mum, if you dont understand me,
Stop judging me and treating me like your puppet.
Dont push those blames on me, when its not my fault.
I have my limits too.
I really wanna go relieve stress,
I want to go take a walk, who's free? :/
Everything just came crashing down together on me, at the same time.
I feel like crying out loud, like nobody's business.
Sighs, when can i get over this period?
Its killing me, everyday.

2009-04-20T18:33:00.003+08:00

Tell me the feeling of tired.
Tell me the definition of love.
Tell me the solution to overcome stress.
Tell me the fact that i'm useless.
---
I feel stressed out.
Homeworks, Tests, Exams, Assignments, Projects.
I'm getting phobia of school.
Every morning when i wake up,
while on the way to school,
I always feel like crying.
I dont want to go school, school's like hell for me.
I feel like a useless ass.
I felt stupid, :/
Sighs,
I guess i better start doing my work,
O:

- Chemistry test tomorrow on Covalent bonding& Chemical Equation.
- Physics test on Wednesday on vectors.
- Maths Exercises to be completed.
- Zuoye & Zuowen on Wednesday.
- F&n decision making to be handed in tomorrow.
- Poa Bank Reconciliation Worksheet.

~ I need help for poa,
~ I need help for maths,
~ I need help for both physics & chemistry,
~ I need to pay more attention in class & read more chinese materials.
~ I need to stop slacking.
~ I need to have strong determination to study.
~ I need to work extremely hard to be able to cope.
! I dont want to fail.
! I dont want to feel so useless & stupid.
! I want to get rid of my headache.
! I need to start revising.

Mentally Tired, Mentally Stressed.

2009-04-19T23:39:00.002+08:00

its 11.39pm right now.
Yet, my tears are uncontrollable suddenly.
I feel like blogging.
I'm sad, so damn sad.
hais, saya amat memerlukan anda.

2009-04-18T23:06:00.003+08:00

Rotted at home :x :x
was trying out my f&n dishes.
Laughs, turn out damn cheesy O:
anyway, was very tired & bored.
Watched tv, Used computer, Messaged.
Slept at about 3?
Woke at 11++ replied some msg, and fell asleep till 1++.
was super super hot & tired :/
My guinea pigs came at about 6?
Left at 8.
Went ntuc, sent them to bus stop.
Nothing much to update already.
Gotta go do my homework, Bathe & Update my private blog.
- Literature Essay on Mayella.
- Chinese Zuoye & Zuowen.
- Maths Textbook ( I dont even understand the topic ).
Byeeee.

I NEED MOTIVATIONS.
Joey has to start revising her work.
I need help for most subjects.
MUGMUGMUG!
must work hard, must study hard.

you're still the one, always.

2009-04-17T15:38:00.004+08:00

TODAY'S A DAMNIT DAMNIT HOT DAY I SWEAR.
Happy Birthday MrTan.GR!
Old man already uh, go dye your hair black lor.
Oh, yes its my idea to sing birthday song.
:D.
---
I was having a damn moodswing today?
Especially during maths lesson.
i was suddenly quiet, then laughing like some crazy freak.
Sorry priya for abusing you today :x :x
Oh yah, I feel like abusing people today during Maths class.
Kinda gone mentally unstable.
Laughs,
played basketball under the hot hot sun,
my face got super red and i'm veryvery hot :/
Went to computer lab 4 to do ic registration,
Gonna collect it i dont know when?
My photo's screwed up :/
By the way, i skipped pe today :X
then mr kong asked me to go over,
and he asked me is something wrong?
said he feel thati've a big change since sec 3.
i seemed to be troubled everyday, then blahblah.
ask me is it bgr or whatever.
then i'm like, oh. no lah, just stress that exams coming.
then blahblahblah.
Do i really look so troubled? O:
Anyway, i'm hungry.
gonna bathe and out to eat, then purmei already :D.
To be edited when i'm back (:
~~Byeeeeeeeeee, <3.~~
Edited-------------------x.
Reached purmei at about 6++ ?
There's a damn jam at around bm that area lah.
Sat at court, hear songs, see them play match.
And got several stings by mosquitoes D:
Lunch/Dinner at about 7+ with jueyu, john, junda.
Laughs, J to the power of 4 :D.
Back to court, played daidi.
after that, play match, shoot ball.
Slacked till lights out, and stayed awhile longer.
Walked down to the next stop with john & edmund.
They're like so lame and gaying in front of me,
so i walked behind slowly (:
after crossing the road, we seperated.
Laughs, i enjoy lonely rides with earpiece plugged into my ears.
Then thinking about things.
Okay, I'm very very very tired already.
Byeeeeeeeeee, <3
I'm off to my dreamland !

2009-04-15T23:19:00.003+08:00

Happy 18th Blaise ! :D.
There's alot alot people at his house.
just the usual clique, with some of their friends.
Okay, had quite alot of fun.
Havent been laughing like yesterday already.
Anyway,
Met reynold at vivo and went to buy present for blaise.
Oh, and we disturbed him with a barbie stationery set.
Laughs.
Cabbed home around 10++.
Was feeling very tired and miserable already.
---

Today,
Slept in class for most of the lessons.
I cant help it :/
My blocked nose's killing me.
F&N lesson was niceee :D.
I'm still deciding what to cook,
and next thursday's the practical. O:
i've got guinea pigs on sunday already :D.
hahaha.
Lunched with kelvin, weekeat& jueyu at henderson market today.
Went bm mac to slack.
Homed afterthat.
I fell asleep straight :/
Dont feel like touching homework.
Was veryvery moody today D:
i actually cried, cause i dont feel like going school?
Really damn joke.
Yeah, nothing but bad mood.
I am stressed !
I got phobia of going school, homeworks, tests.
I dont want to fall below my target.
D:

GabrielTJJ was sick uh.
And he recovered, now my turn D:
---
mummy can i not go school tomorrow ? D:

2009-04-14T16:47:00.006+08:00

ThirtyThird,
我不快乐。
I'm so tired today,
Moodswing :/
Dont want to elaborate more.
I want to go for a nap.
I just hope i can sleep forever, and dont wake up.
I HATE TO FACE REALITY,
好想回到过去，

Bye.
i'm gonna remove my tagboard soon, i think.
Will put it back when i feel like it.
Edited-----------------x
Woke up after my nap,
before napping was having bad mood :/
anyway, had headache when i woke up D:
and its driving me crazy.
and my knee injury's coming back to kill me.
O:
I dont know what to update already,
Off to my private blog.
Bye.

2009-04-13T22:08:00.004+08:00

Extreme Moodswings, Mentally Unstable.
---
Cried :/
Today's 13th.
Its a monday, definately a sucky monday.
Boring Lessons, Long School Hours, Stupid Subjects.
I'm having extreme moodswing today.
Even Mr Tan says so, and he asked " PMS ah ? "
Laughs, i'm like , no lah. siao.
Went ps with shengying, yuexuan & charmaine for lunch.
Had pastamania.
Saw rayner & aaron.
175-ed home alone.
I kinda enjoy the journey home alone,
listening to musics, doing self reflections.
Laughs, and how silly am i.
I cant even recognise my own house bus stop.
I stood at the door, hesitating whether i should alight or not.
I kept looking around to be comfirm.
Okay, whatever. Crap -.-
Thanks for that Cute Mickey Card Sticker.
Love it uh.
:D.

Oh, we're suppose to create a class blog :D.
Hohoho !
And I cant wait for Aces Day & making our class tee.
I'll go gaga over such stuffs.
Okay, moodswing -.-
Bye.
Off to update private blog.
Oh btw, Happy birthday ivan.
Please grow up.
Saturday was Wenjun'steadstead's birthday.
LoveyouLots!
Friday was Xiaoting'LaughingBudBud's birthday.
Loveyoutoo!
Outings soon.

OKAY , I'M GONNA STOP CRAPPING.
BYE.

2009-04-12T21:40:00.005+08:00

i was at home rotting.
I cant stand boredom D: D:
Suppose to go play pool with clique,
but mother dont allow last minute.
No choice, stayed home.
ROTTED BADLY.
Was crapping on msn with quite a number of people,
and playing msn games with yuexuan.
I'M DYING TO CHANGE A NEW BLOGSKIN.
but i couldnt find a nice one.
I was spending my precious time finding & hunting for nice skins.
But all dont suit me D:
Crap, I'm gonna learn how to make blogskins!
:D.

2009-04-11T23:49:00.010+08:00

Outings with yuexuan, hweeying & jueyu today.
Met Hweeying at house downstairs today.
Bused to tiong together.
Once again, we're late !
Poor honey has to wait for us,
while waiting for us, she got surveyed by strangers.
Laughs, saw ahvann & co. at mcd.
Trained to boonlay.
Was raining heavily,
thats why we changed our mind to jurong point instead of imm.
Lol, jurong point again. :X :X
just randomly walking around, killing time.
until hweeying's stomach growl.
Laughs, kfc-ed again. :X :X
Cheeeeeeeese <3.
we took lots of photos , like some crazy bunch of women.
Oh, i miss girlfriends D:
Its been quite some time since i last saw yolanda, debra & ischelle huh.
---
Went toilet after our meal,
Camwhore again, of cause, like duh ! ;D.
After that, went walk walk awhile.
& hweeying gotta go.
Then we decided to train back with her, and go town.
Alighted at commonwealth, send her out and went back to wait for our train.
Wanted to go bugis/orchard, but got so sian of there.
decided to go plazasing.
randomly walked around again,
wasnt feeling quite well uh. :/ hais.
saw chaojun and his friends.
we're still randomly walking around plazasing,
just up and down the escalators, in and out of the shops, up and down the lifts.
around 8+++, bused to bm for dinner,
end up everything was closed already,
so after one big round, our dinner's fastfood AGAIN -.-
& its Mac.
We're all not hungry yet, or rather hungry but no appetite ; which is me :x :x
Crapped at mac, until around 9.45 .
Yuexuan gotta rush home, and we went off.
Different buses, Different places, Different directions.
Oh, i saw rajar! laughs.
Homed, Bathed, Blogged.

Photos next :D.

hweeying. joey.

yuexuan. jueyu.

hweeying& jueyu. cheese ! :D.

jueyu. hweeying.

yuexuan. jueyu.

jueyu. Camwhore at toilet (1)

camwhore at toilet (2). camwhore at toilet (3).

jueyu. joey.

elmo. unglam !

zilians :D.

that's my dinner O:

EDITED Pictures :

Credits to Joey; photographer & editor.

2009-04-10T23:38:00.006+08:00

TwentyNinth,

i had a dream last night,
i dreamt that i was in a car accident,
and was badly injured.
i lost my memory,
i only remembered the things before everything started.
if only dreams are like reality,
i really want to perfect everything.
stupid girl,
its never gonna happen,
i've to stay strong.
so long as you're happy,
so long as you're fine,
i'm happy, contented enough.
---
Slept at 4am in the morning the previous night,
woke up at around 1 in the afternoon.
was damn tired uh :/
i woke up with my inbox flooded with messages.
woke up, wash up and had a bite.
cause i was hungry!
decided to meet for pool at around 4.
and it started raining super heavily around 3+ liddat.
brought my transparent umbrella out :D.
the rain's like so heavy that everything seems so foggy cans.
and everyone's like looking at me as i walk to the bus stop?
I know my umbrella's special (:
Bused to interchange and took 131,
met jueyu on bus and to safra.
laughs, thanks for helping me to buy mentos, bring slippers and tissue.
My shoes are totally wet lors.
Oh, safra's damn crowded today.
All the tables are like used? power uh.
There's rayner, john, dhurkesh, junda, jiajun, guoliang & jueyu today.
Dhurkesh & Guoliang went off quite early.
Pooled from 4 till 8.
Afterwards, rayner & co. went town.
Junda, Jueyu& Joey went home.
:D
homed for dinner,
bathed, & here am i blogging.
Bye Readers.

BlahBlahBlah,
i cannot stand you le lor.
I'm so damnit pissed with you.
---
Hey you,
thanks for being so nice to me,
Sorry.

2009-04-09T21:21:00.004+08:00

Yesterday,
last day for the literature workshop.
was already very very tired before the workshop.
skipped recess and lunch again.
recess was studying chinese test.
oh, GG for my chinese test.
was too tired the previous night to study, :/
hais.
After school dont even have much time for lunch,
must well just skipped it.
dont feel hungry anyway, and a good way for me to go on diet.
Workshop was rather fun,
we're slowly getting a better picture of every character's role and every little thing that creates the story.
workshop was entertaining, but tiring :/
cause spent such long hours in school, i'm not used to it O:
library was as cold as yesterday.
Miss Julia is really nice & funny, she's a good instructor okay ! :D.
Apple is damn cute, :D.
After the workshop, went dawson with edrick to get something to eat,
'cause was damnit hungry and a little gastric already.
bought wafer and went bus stop for bus.
met yvonne at queensway.
Bought grey contacts& solution,
accompanied her to eat her dinner at mcd,
ate mcflurry (:
then waited for isaac,
suppose pei him go cut hair, but shop close le.
so he send the two of us home.

Today;
Cross country at japanese garden.
Met yvonne on bus,
bused to tiong, daniel & edrick didnt meet us in the end.
saw many many queenstownians.
Trained to chinese garden.
Fun runners had no choice, so gotta run.
everyone's like strolling,
jean, luvena, rica, yuexuan, charmaine, priya & me;
we're like chatting and strolling.
hah, hot but fun.
Strathmore was the champion house this year, Grats.
Event ended at about 12.
went toilet to put contacts :x
they're all like staring at me lah.
trained to boonlay with yuexuan, yvonne, charmaine & hweeying.
breakfast/lunch was kfc.
saw MrYe, and the other baobeihs.
Yvonne left after eating.
sat and chatted with jillene they all at mac,
zilianed.
Laughs, then went to walk around.
jacob came to find me,
and yeah.
found a place to sit down, and started chatting.
Blahs, sorry to yuexuan,hweeying, jacob & charmaine.
for listening to me ranting everything.
After that, trained back home with them.
Met jueyu at tiong,
bought rubberband,
and bused to purmei.
I tasted my vanilla milkshake like finally.
went to court shoot ball :x
walked to next bus stop & bused home.
Walking home alone is fun :D.
I just cant take it any longer.
I feel so tired of life. and everything.
Even if one day i were to go mia,
i doubt anyone will even notice that i'm gone.
cause no one cares.
Mentally tired, :/
I'm on the verge of getting depression i think.
I'm getting used to being alone.
I'm always so tired everyday.
I dont like talking, and i dont know what to talk about.
I dont quite like to smile anymore.
I love to plug in my earpiece and hear emo songs.
I love the dark, I love black.
TwentyEighth, :/
Whatever, I'm gonna stop crapping.
Photos next,

Bye,

2009-04-07T22:22:00.005+08:00

I got your picture in my wallet,
and your phone number to call it.
and i miss you more, whenever i think about you.
-------

School's boring today.
Priya ps-ed me today for her syf.
anyway, QuestBand got bronze :/
i think they should deserve more than that luhs.
They've been putting so much effort,
practicising almost everyday including weekdays.
Cheer up yah?
You guys did your best :D.
Was damnit tired in class today, :/
Cooked cupcakes for f&n,
nicenice :'p
saw marcus bestie today aye.
laughs, went dawson with daniel and mike.
daniel's eating like so slowly,
and we're late for our literature workshop.
Rather fun and interesting,
i just like the way Miss Julia talks.
Her actions and expressions are way too cute.
Anyway, enjoyed myself today.
I swear the library is super duper cold luhs.
With jacket, i'm still freezing.
suddenly, i was thinking of you.
About how you used to be around,
to hug me and keep me warm whenever i'm cold.
About how you used to reply my msgs,
when i told you i was cold.
but this are no longer the same.
Workshop ended at 6.
went dawson, bought waffer.
Bused to interchange with adelyne, missed our bus.
so we decided to walk home.
its the same route we used to take,
its the same way you used to send me home.
everything that happens, still remains in my mind,
i still can remember everything vivdly,
and its playing a film, in my head.
Dinner was fishball noodle.
was damn tired, so i rested.
slept till about 9++,
here i am blogging.
gotta go,
still have incompleted homeworks,
and chinese test to study for D:
Bye (:
Oh btw, i'm going to buy contact lens sooon ! :D.
and edrick tong !
Thanks for kicking my forehead today,
It hurts badly now.
THANKYOU. ):

2009-04-06T22:01:00.002+08:00

Life sucks.
School sucks.
Joey sucks.
I'm going MIA soon, i guess.
Dont ask me why,
I just feel like being alone.

2009-04-05T15:56:00.006+08:00

Sorry Readers,
have been delaying the day for updating.
Lets start off with Friday.

As usual had school,
Damn the english reading period,
now we cant read our literature text.
Had pe for our first period,
everyone have to play basketball at the outdoor court,
under the damn hot sun -.-
just last ten mins, we're sitting down and rest.
the teacher come and say, girls do 20 jumping jacks.
if after you finish, your shirt is tucked out, redo.
if one of you stopped halfway, redo.
That really pissed us off.
After pe, was damnit hot and tired.
feel so moodless and sleepy in class.
Skipped recess again :x
After school, met jueyu at tiong for lunch.
Saw ahvann, meixuan, dawn and wenxin and LJS.
Had cheese again (:
I think i seriously need to go for a diet already.
After that walked around, and homed.
Bathed, and left for purmei.
Balled, no not exactly. just some match which i didnt run at all with yolanda & friends.
Laughs, slacked at court till about 8++,
as the guys are playing full court matches

went for dinner with jueyu, rayner & hongkiap.
Junda and Hongsheng came,
after that we went back court.
Slacked there :X
hongkiap left at about 9++.
We waited till lights out.
Then we start doing crazy stuffs.
Supposed to buy alcohol, but end up,
We all started , turning rounds at half court,
then run and do lay ups.
Its fun luhs.
Then i did full court layups left and right,
I challenge junda with suicide,
I challenge everyone at court for suicide,
Played match with junda,
Did lots of runnings and turnings.
dont need alcohol also abit seh already.
Head was a little pain.
Laughs, cabbed home at about 10.50.

Saturday;
Cousins came over to my house.
And they took over my computer.
was feeling bored so asked mum if i can go play pool with friends.
met rayner&co. at safra,
didnt play pool at all, just sitting there and listening music.
hah, i saw guoen :x
After that they went bugis, i went home.
Took birthday cake and homed.
Had Dinner, and Anthea challenge me chilli.
Laughs, i swear it is spicy but addictive :D.
Back to room, see cousin dota.
then suddenly, they're all into the word challenge game in facebook.
Laughs, was playing and playing for hours.
Around 9+++, sang birthday song for grandmother and tada,
The cake's nice okay ! I took two.
Seee , i seriously need a diet.
Yay, i drank RedWine <3.>
Wanting more, but wasnt allowed to.
cause i took more than i should.
After cousins left, packed up my room, mopped floor.
wanted to blog, but my eyelids are heavy.
went to bed and doze off at 2am.

Today;
Woke up at 8am, gotta go choachukang pray.
First was to great grandfather,
Since i was born, i hadnt see him.
So i feel nothing.
Next was to cousin,
My eyes are watery the moment i saw his photo,
I should have been to his funeral,
The last time i saw him was like 2/3 years ago's CNY.
I was hoping to see him this cny, but he was hospitalised.
So i thought, next year.
Little did anyone of us know, you'll leave us around the last few days of CNY.
sorry for not being able to be there to send you off.
I hope you're alrights up there.
Though you left at the age of 27,
At least, your pain is taken away.
And i couldnt hold my tears any longer.
Dear cousin, i kinda miss you :/.
Then was greatgrandmother, 7 years since you're gone.
I still remember how you used to dote on me.
Definately more than the other cousins.
I remember how you used to come and visit me in school during recess,
when i was still primary 1 or 2.
Lalas, i wanna be your great granddaughter again for my other lives.
i miss you too. :/
Just like every other year, we rented bus and go together as a big family.
Bused back home, and was resting on the journey back.
It was pouring quite heavily, O:
Hmmm. I'm off to Bm mcd to study already.
---- back home,
studied, slacked, ate, laughed.
end of today.

it has always been you.
unlike every other relationships,
this is the only one i cherish the most.
you are the only one i love the most.

2009-04-02T19:54:00.003+08:00

Lets start of with a survey tagged by Jueyu'Babyyy.
1. The person who tagged me is? Jueyu'Babyyy.
2. Your relationship with her? Babyyy.
3. Your 5 impression of her? Zi-high, Adorable, Retarded, Lovely, Sweet (:
4. The most memorable thing she/he had done for you?
Every little thing.
5. If he/she becomes your lover,you will?
Laughs, i will become a lesbian then.
6. If he/she becomes your lover,things she/he has to improve on?
Laughs, no need. I'll accept all her flaws.
7. If he/she becomes your enemy,you will? Upset,
8. What is it you want to tell her? Thankyou, iloveyou.
9. Your overall impression of her now? Great.
10. How do you think people around you feel about you?
No idea, anyone want to let me know how you feel about me? I accept all comments.
1. The characters you yourself love? No idea.
12. The most ideal person you wanna be? Myself.
13. For people that care and likes you,say something to them. - Heartfelt thanks, loveya :D.

Pass this quiz to 10 people you wish to know how they feel about.
1. Jueyu'Baby.
2. Yolanda'Lilpink.
3. Debra'Girlfriend.
4. Ischelle'Boyfried.
5. Rayner'Cutie.
6. Yuexuan'Honey.
7. Yvonne'Dear.
8. Junda'SmallBoy.
9. Gabriel'Brother.
10. Hweeying'S`triplet.

Who's no.6 having relationship with?
(Yuexuan) Me :D.
If 7 & 10 are together, will it be a good thing ?
(Yvonne&Hweeying) Laughs, mother& daugther relationship counted mah?
What is no.2 studying about ?
(Yolanda) I dont know? I know there's D&T !
When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3 ?
(Debra) Urm. the last outing bah.
What kind of Music does no.8 like ?
(Junda) He likes heavy metal i think.
Does no.1 have any siblings ?
(Jueyu) Yups, Brothers. 3 of them.
Will you woo no. 3 ?
(Debra) If i'm a guy, why not!
How about 7 ?
(Yvonne) She's my dear.
Is no.4 single ?
(Ischelle) Yuppp, she is.
What is the surname of no.5 ?
(Rayner) Heah.
What is the Hobby of 10 ?
(Hweeying) Idk? Basketball and Drawing i think.
Do no. 5 & 9 getting along ?
(Rayner&Gabriel) They're strangers.
Where is no. 2 studying at ?
(Yolanda) Outram Secondary.
Where does 9 live ?
(Gabriel) He lives at jurong, i think.
What color does 4 like ?
(Ischelle) Red?
What is 10 doing now ?
(Hweeying) Things she wants to do.

--- to be updated, dinner first. Byeee (:

Okay, today seriously sucked.
I was damnit tired in class, for all the lessons.
Slept at 2am , just to do my R&D till page 10.
Slept 4 hours, woke up and off to school.
Blahs, was trying to stay awake luhs.
Today's damnit hot uh.
Bad Day, Bad Weather, Bad Sleep, Bad Mood, Bad Temper.
& Bad Hair Day too !
everything just totally screwed up.
I hate school ! ):

(L), More than words can ever describe.
(You), Nothing can ever replace you.
Twenty, :/

2009-03-30T20:04:00.003+08:00

Saturday,
went to play pool with rayner and co.
then dinner with yolanda and ischelle.
walked to purmei ,
then slacked awhile at bus stop.
went up yolanda's house,
and then hillock .
was playing swingswing.
if only, it can swing away all my stress :/
hais,
homed at about 11 +++ ?

Sunday,
didnt go out.
bad weather, plus tired.
was watching tv and using com.
did homework,
went to sleep.
nothing much already .

Monday;
school-ed .
homeworks are driving me crazy.
To be completed:
- Maths Revision 4
- Maths Exercise 5.1
- Study for f&n test tomorrow.
- Poa homework
- Chemistry homework
- F&N ; research& development
- Chinese dubao
- Chinese Zuoye

Wont all this drive you crazy ?
suppose to have detention,
but mr wan say not everyone present so let us go.
why? cause i didnt complete my chemistry homework.
i totally forget about it.
alrights, i better start doing my homework.
Bye readers.
and i've decided,
i'll stay home every saturday.
if i manage to complete my homework,
ask me out on sunday then.
if not, i doubt i will leave my house.
unless homework is less than 3 sets.
sorry, i really want to study hard.
i cant cope at all :/

hais.
mentally, physically, emotionally tired.
a lot of things have been bothering me.
what a failure i am,
cant even kept that simple promise.
i said i will study hard, and show you good grades.
i feel like giving up already,
stress- i cant take it.
but i'll still try my best.
i must study hard, i will study hard.
i must keep my promise, i will keep my promise.
no matter how hard and how far i gotta push myself,
no matter how tiring it will get,
for you, i will.
---
i feel like going mia for a week,
dont contact anyone.
only update blog about my daily life.
as for online? not sure.
homed immediately after school.
i really feel like :/
---
laughs, if i have a time machine.
i really want to turn back time.

2009-03-28T00:02:00.002+08:00

(*inserts random photo in the past).

Friday;
Took napfa test in the morning, first two period.
okay, though i took my breakfast,
my stomach's still growling!
dont blame me, i'm just hungry. ):
i woke up kinda early today, surprisingly!
was rather tired, wore pe to school directly.
was almost late for school okay,
THANK YOU DEAR SISTER,
FOR TAKING YOUR OWN SWEEEEET TIME -.-
thank god i'm not late.
laughs, i saw jueyu, and her retarded look in the morning,
while waiting to board her bus.
Bad hair day today ! D:
after pe, i didnt tie my hair at all.
lalas~ and cause of that, i'm called ahlian. -.-
---
it seems like i've not been to school for a thousand million days?
i was like a stranger to the usual menu for recess.
okay, ate nasi lemak - food sucks okay!
i want the canteen to be back D:
i miss Daddy's food! D: D:
---
took poa test, hope i can pass.
cause i didnt really study.
chiong my maths class work today,
Mr Tan's damn biased lah.
He say if i dont complete, i will get detention for the whole of next week.
Yvonne cant complete, he say by monday morning.
RAWRS.
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went for f&n workshop , by Prego products & food nutritionists.
Teamed up with Priya, Melisa & Gladys.
Cooked baked rice,
and won First prize :D.
for creativity, and etc.
Lalas ~
I feel so so so proud (: (: (:
after that, stayed in kitchen help MrsAnthony do the cookie time name slips.
Yay, Monday we're having cookie time.
Hweemin will be up there saying: " Hey School, its cookie time! we'll like to invite ____ today to give away the cookies for today. _____ please. "
Bused home after that,
walked to bus stop, with Meiling'bookshop aunty.
Then there's a group of lowersec boys who asked, aunty, your daughter ah?
aunty say, if you think she is, then she is lo.
Was damnit sleepy by the time i reached home,
quickly bathed and changed into uniform.
left house at around 5 and bused to purmei.
Rayner was like scaring me dont know how many times lah.
Left at about 6, gotta rush for parents meeting.
was damnit tired, and i fell asleep on bus.
i feel sick :/
was very very very hungry, that i've no choice i bought watermelon.
My lunch ; 6.40pm.
Parent meeting was so boring lah.
Talk about school core values, camps.
Oh god, talking about camp.
27 may - 29 may.
at indonesia, requires 2hours of ferry ride.
we'll be staying in some hotel, which has a hospital 20 mins away.
we'll have to teach the people there, english as part of CIP.
cool uh. but i'm so not looking forward to it.
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after meeting,
went dinner with yvonne at abc market.
met issac'daddy and his friend at ikea.
ate prawn noodle.
then slacked at playground,
walked back to ikea, and i'm feeling hungry.
so i got myself hotdog bread <3.
Bused home with yvonne after that.
Homed at about 10, was damnit tired ! D:

Tada, the end.
Gonna help issac'daddy do up his blog,
and then update my private blog.
Byeee (:

and i miss you hell loads,
every little thing you did,
meant so much to me.
its the 27th today, hais.
Joey, you're such an ass.

2009-03-26T23:57:00.002+08:00

i touched basketball today :x
its been dont know how long since i played ball.
okay, my stamina's getting worst.
i'm always panting, like hell.
oh whatever, i dont plan to play sports anymore.
I've a weak heart,
I hate sun, I hate to sweat.
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Finally, it has been so long since i last saw purmei court having,
enough people for full court eh.
Laughs,
didnt went to school on thursday,
cause my headache since wednesday night didnt went off.
was damnit moody :/
felt so tired and lethargic in the morning so i told mum i dont want go school.
Bad Bad Headache.
slept till 11 ++,
woke up and started to do my Research&Development.
Didnt know it was f&n lesson in school too,
yvonne, issac, annan, priya & rafael signed in msn in lab oh,
breakfast was maggee, :/
then rested a while more and went purmei with hweeying and yvonne.
sorry for the wait uh.
Balled till about eight plus plus nine?
Bought green tea and homed.
Oh, aunty said she's going thailand.
Aww, i'll miss you load eh.
Hope you enjoy yourself!

Tada, end of thursday.
Bye Readers (:
Stay tune to next post about Friday, 270309 :D.

2009-03-25T23:04:00.002+08:00

I need pills, I need medicines.
Medicines for all kinds of sickness.
I need an anti-stress pill, to get rid of my stress.
I need an anti-tired pill, to get rid of my tiredness.
I need a painkiller, to get rid of my damn headache.
I need a friendship pill, to get rid of all my friendship problems.
I need an anti-metal pill, to get rid of mental problems.
I need an anti-depress pill, to get rid of my depression.
I need counseling, I need to relieve stress,
I need to stop thinking about penknives,
I need to stop having the thoughts of slitting my own wrists to reduce stress.
I need to work extremely harder,
I need to catch up with my work,
I need to complete all my homeworks,
I need a medicine, to control my emotions.
I need a love pill, to cure my broken heart.
If only you're still here with me,
just a little bit of concern from you,
can take away a lot alot of my stress away.
I feel so tired everyday,
be it mentally, physically, emotionally.
It just feels different, without you.
Its driving me crazy, i swear.

2009-03-23T20:58:00.002+08:00

Its like the first day of term two only.
Just start holiday,
I feel so stressed, so damn tired.
Alot homeworks, tests, :/
Everything's driving me crazy ):
I want to top F&N no matter what, but it just seemed so difficult.
I lost my motivations for studies, D:
Someone out there, please motivate me O:
Gotta go do my homeworks already,
alot alot more ):

Chinese 5 articles by friday,
Chinese worksheet by wednesday,
Chinese Journal by wednesday,
Kingsway summary by wednesday,
Maths Textbook & Workbook by tomorrow,
F&N Research&Development Coursework by tomorrow,
Study F&N - food and you.

SERIOUSLY DRIVING ME NUTS -.-

2009-03-22T13:46:00.003+08:00

school's tomorrow,
homework not really done ):
Siao liao, Monday then chiong. :D
anyone want help me? LOL.

Oh,
Played pool again with rayner, janitra, junda & singwai .
Ate satay, and spagetthi for dinner.
Homed, feeling tired & down :/

2009-03-21T02:21:00.003+08:00

Thursday ;
Waited for jueyu to wake up and come my house do homework .
that pig promoted to super pig and yeah, woke in the afternoon.
We're not exactly doing yah ?
Till about 5 + 6 , we started using com .
I went to bathe , then eat a small bowl of porridge,
left house around 7 went to purmei .
Waited for aunty to close shop, and went home with blaise and aunty.
Saw pinkpinkpink ! :D
Slacked at her house, watching videos, viewing some joker's zilians,
Its like damnit funny lah, we burst into laughter after every photo. (LOL)
went home at 11+++ going 12.
Reached home, ate dinner ; maggee meee.
was damnit hungry ):
after eating, i fell asleep on sofa O:
i dont know why, i just feel so, tired.
went to bed at about 2 + 3+ .

Edited ----------------

Yesterday,
Wanted to go seoul garden with jueyu and yolanda.
end up all of us woke up late.
went tiong to have griller for lunch,
The service sucks man -.-
saw ahvannn`lilmeinu :D
miss her loads luhs.
then after eating, didnt know what to do.
Still, we ended up playing pool till 8.
bused home.
dinner, homeworked, use computer & watched that damn horror thai show.
Freaked me out seriously.

I was on bed at about 4am,
but i cant seem to fall asleep.
yet, i'm really exhausted already.
When its about 6 in the morning,
I finally closed my eyes and went to sleep.
Somehow i just woke up at 9 this morning,
feeling so damn tired,
but i cant go back to sleep.
All i do is, close my eyes and rest.
What's wrong with me? :/

2009-03-19T01:07:00.003+08:00

I'm lazy to update my blog currently,
after a long day of walking around.
Hmmm.
Gonna blog in more detail tomorrow morning/afternoon.
I'm off to call the sunshine boy and have conference already,
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

edited ;
Met up with yolanda and jueyu for lunch at harbourfront kfc ,
then ischelle came.
after eating, we went walking around at vivo.
Till shankkar came to meet me.
then we left yolanda and ischelle,
bused to bugis.
went to look for jillene :D
Hah, Happy birthday dear girl!
then walked around bugis street,
bused to safra find hongsheng, yolanda, ischelle and debra for pool,
went home after that [:

BANG BANG BANG {!}
Tell me,
you love me.

2009-03-17T13:03:00.002+08:00

Headed to school in the morning yesterday,
afterwards went to eat brunch with yvonne, izac & annan.
walked around,
and bused to purmei.
then went safra for pool .
and ate chicken rice :D
went home at 7+ ,
started watching tv , tv and tv .
smsing , smsing and smsing .
on phone for a while,
slept at 3+.

Bye readers.

2009-03-15T10:31:00.003+08:00

Blogging, is the only thing i can do.
I cant bottle things, i'll die inside.

~~I just didnt expect things to end like this.~~
i dont know what exactly went wrong,
You left me with such sweet memories,
and a broken heart.
how am i suppose to mend it.
Before all these, we're okay.
I didnt know it will turn out like this, :/
I've never felt so upset before,
Everywhere i go, Everyone i see, Everything i do,
Reminds me of you,
the times we spent, and what we used to be.
Its just like a broken melody,
played with a broken guitar, with a broken string.
Can you hear my broken heart screaming.
I remember, you said if i dont change, you will lecture me everyday.
You said your love for me will always remain.
You hope that i can change for the better,
and allow my parents to know you are in this world.
I wanted to let them know,
I've found the best boyfriend in the whole wide world,
But i cant seem to do it already :/
Remember i said i want to do something for you?
Its like only 1/4 done, and i cant complete it already.
I wanted to do a small photo album, or rather diary.
Recording all our outing, our photos taken.
On 130209;
Its 246days since we last broke up.
I asked you for patch,
and bought chocolates for you.
Back then at shop, we're all filled with laughters, and smiles.
140209;
Its valentines day.
You brought me to singapore flyer.
Thats the very first time, i went and its with you.
We went pool, and that night you walked me home.
150209-210209;
We had school,
so after school, its just meeting you.
and sometimes played basketball.
I just love to sit at the court, and watch you play basketball.
220209;
we went vivo with jueyu to buy her school shoes.
we went to void deck and studied,
230209-260209;
We had school,
and nothing much,
just meeting you or basketball.
270209;
we decided to take back our date,
and continue counting the months, including the period we're seperated.
Its our 14th months together.
We had school, but i went home to change first before meeting you.
This is the first time, you cooked for me.
It really touched me, really.
You even scalded your hand, and had an air bubble on your finger.
):
280209;
you said we'll go pizza hut one day.
we went that day, with yolanda and reynold.
It was raining heavily,
we went to play pool that day,
then we bused home.
Thats the very first time,
you see me in dress.
020309;
thats the day i went bras basah with jueyu,
to buy the pens and that book to do that diary for you.
Met you later, and we lunched.
030309;
went queensway with jueyu and weekeat.
met you afterwards.
040309;
thats the day we had our first quarrel :/
I'm sorry for those attitudes,
I really didnt notice.
050309;
Thank god everything's quite fine.
Was really damn sorry,
and couldnt control tears in school that day.
060309;
you had to work after school,
i met you for a short while,
and went off already.
070309;
you had to work again,
so i went to play pool with yolanda and co.
080309;
Caught Marley and Me at great world.
Everything still seems fine,
yet i didnt know it could turn out to be such tragedy.
090309-110309;
you had to stay in school till 9+ at night.
didnt meet you at all.
120309;
i didnt went to school,
and met you after your school.
I went pool after that, and went back purmei.
you walked me to the next bus stop,
and i sensed something was wrong.
This is when, everything starts to happen.
130309;
I couldnt stop my tears,
i just kept crying, and crying and crying.
One month ago, back at shop.
we're like filled with smiles on our faces,
i didnt expect things to worsen like that.
I was aware at times that you looked tired,
but you always say no or abit.
i thought it would be alright.
If i know you feel so tired,
I really dont mind with not meeting you.
I should have been more understanding towards you.
I'm sorry for asking so much of you,
I'm sorry for being selfish and neglected your feelings.
Must we really end like this?
Can we mend this together,
can we overcome this obstacle together?
Can i get your forgiveness,
I promise i will not be a burden,
giving you stress again.
I promise to be a good good girl,
taking good care of myself,
studying real hard and show you good results,
changing to be a good daughter and show my parents i can do it,
and let them know the presence of you.

Sigh, is everything too late?
I really dont want to lose my last chance like that.
I'm feeling extremely miserable inside,
I want to scream my lungs out.
Can i remove my heart so i wouldnt feel so pain? :/
I just dont want things to turn out like that.
Can we talk things out?
------
It hurts so bad, i can't take it any longer.
sorry if i made you feel left out,
Argh, cant we save it any more? ):
sigh, afterall. you're still the one.

Sigh,
maybe its really stressing you.
maybe i've over loved you.
Thanks for all the memories you've given me.
Thanks for letting me be yours once, and let me know what's love.
Thanks for all the pampers, care and concern.
Though i'm really upset,
like what patrick says,
If you've done your best, no point regretting.
I still have to get on with life.
I hope you'll study hard, get into a poly and your desire course.
I wish you all the best in everything.
I hope you'll get a better girlfriend than me.
I did my best to love you,
I've tried my best to save this relationship le.
I just hope you'll be happy everyday.
I just hope, you'll find your group of friends soon and stop complaining lonely.
Once again, Thanks and Sorry.
I just hope you wont forget me, I hope i'm still a friend of yours.
Dont avoid me or anything.
You can always look for me, regardless of anything, any problem.
我真的爱了，可我从来没有后悔爱上你.
谢谢你给我一个美好的回忆.
如果我们有缘的话，以后再见.
I'll still carry on with life happily.
i want you to be happy too.
I wouldnt want to think so much,
Maybe, in future, i might be yours again.
Take good care of yourself please.
I dont want to see you like that.
No matter what, stay strong, and be happy.
This is the last time, i'm saying,
iloveyou.
After today, i wouldnt tear.
no, not anymore.
Stay happy always,
Just know, i'm always here for you, rain or shine.
Takecare,

2009-03-13T22:34:00.019+08:00

How should i start posting?
I just wanna say, i'm sorry.
I didnt know you feel so tired.
I should have been more understanding,
I should have paid more attention to you.
I should not have ask so much of you.
I'm sorry for being so selfish,
I'm sorry for neglecting your feelings,
I really dont want to lose this last chance just like that,
'cause I know i wouldnt have one again.
I'm sorry for always making you rush to meet me from your school,
I never knew you could be so tired till that extend.
I didnt knew it will be such stress, and making you feel so tired being with me.
I guess we're both stressed out.
Especially you,
I'm sorry for not being much more understanding,
I'm sorry I've neglected you.
I'm sorry for everything that I've done.
I'm sorry for making you unable to cope with this relationship.
Just give each other some time to cool, will you?
I promise to pay full attention to you,
And i want you to let me know honestly.
If you feel very tired and dont want to meet me,
Tell me straight, i can understand.
I know your studies have been giving you lots of stress,
I'm sorry for increasing your pain, your stress.
I know i should not be such a burden to you.
If i know, its really so stressed and tired for you,
I would choose to let you do things the way you want.
I can just meet you on days when you're free.
Sorry for not being an understanding girlfriend.
But the way you break it out to me,
is just a little harsh, which really hurts me deeply.
Yet, i know i'm the reason for this.
Sorry, is the only word i can thought of right now.
I know you've been trying your best to give me everything that i asked for.
I'm sorry.
Perhaps, I'm really too much.
I'm sorry for treating you like that,
I suppose your trust in me is completely lost already.
I really want to mend every thing,
Every single small mistake that i did.
I will stay by you, and encourage you to work hard.
I will give you strength and motivations.
I will always be there for you, rain or shine.
I know you've regretted for going back to sec 5,
and now you're very stress.
I wouldnt give you any attitudes, any request anymore.
I just want everything to be fine soon,
I really love you, a lot.
More than words can every describe.

2009-03-12T15:01:00.003+08:00

I didnt go to school today.
Sports day only, plus my stomach cramp till so jialat :/
Morning brought grandmother and sister to purmei for brunch.
Cabbed there with grandmother and met sister there after her school.
Then bused home.
After sending them back, i came out and went purmei again.
Met rayner at shop then chatted for awhile.
Jueyu came for a while and left, Rayner left to meet aaron and co.
Currently blogging at yolanda's house.
We should be going pool later i guess.
I dont feel so well right now :/
My stomach's cramping and its superb pain pain, ):
Sigh, i miss hubby loads D:

Oh yeah, can i say we quarrelled again?
I didnt really know what exactly happened,
all i know you two are pissed with each other.
To be honest, i think brenna's blog is really little too offending.
Though i'm not quite sure who you are mentioning to,
but seriously if i were the person, i'll get angry and upset.
I believe she's in baobeihs, but its really a little too much.
Sorry if you dont like me posting that, but it is just how i feel.
I know all of us are trying our best to save this friendship.
But hey, it really needs a lot of effort and time.
I know hiumun has been trying her best to save this friendship,
planning outings, blogging things that are really touching.
I know each of us tends to dislike a few of us in the baobeih,
be it character or attitude or whatsoever.
To be honest,
Jillene, you're a little too much also.
I know you are rushing to meet your friend.
I know you are kinda pissed off when audrey and diana ps-ed you this morning.
You've told me a lot a lot of thing.
Look, Hiumun told me things too.
But its really hard for me, i've been hearing two diferent stories.
I really dont know who to help, i dont want to like be biased or wronged someone.
Thats why i choose not to be involved and i choose not to talk to anyone of you but just comforting and say:
Aiyo, why liddat. cheer up. chill. everything will be fine.
This really lies between us,
Dont put the blame on others.
Girls, let us all do some self reflection over the holidays bah.
Sometimes, its really our own fault yet we chose to put the blame on others.
Think about it, sisters.
See if you guys, truly want to save back this friendship or not.
Some are trying real hard, Some are really giving up.

2009-03-10T22:48:00.005+08:00

Holidays are coming{!}
But i dont feel like having holidays :X
Sianned, tuesday have to go back school for chemistry lesson.
Just to go through TWO papers, at 10am.
Well, i've gotta be a good girl and show love good results hor? :D

Today had shotput,
Lol, i didnt take my lunch so obviously no energy lah,
i threw the nearest,
first try 3.17m, second try 3.53m.
Lol, i did my best already :x :x
Hate that super heavy metal ball lah.
Muddy, Heavy, Smelly and Ugly!
And that stupid put have to touch your neck, while you swing your body,
till you are about to throw then the ball can move away from your neck.
Now the thing is, the ball is muddy leh.
So disgusting luhs, and i swear i'll never go for that ever again.
Mr Aslam, no i never want to go for that AGAIN.
Was rather hot also :/
After that, went to canteen and wash my muddy hands.
Went dawson with weekeat and sherman.
Bought Icecream & others to eat.
Heehee, i'm just hungry & thirsty.
Bused to purmei, met jueyu, debra, ischelle and yolanda.
at court there is, quite alot people uh.
Had our usual girls' talk.
Hahaha, :D
left purmei at about 7+ , and homed.
took my dinner, tv-ed, blogged [:
Sian, saturday i've got flag day from 1PM - 6PM.
5 LONG hours, of asking people to donate money.
i'll die luhs. T.T

Hah, had a heart-to-heart talk with love yesterday,
its seems to be the first time we're pouring our hearts out.
I feel better, like without bottling up and stuffs.
prevents cold attitude, and hiding of stuffs.
I chose to be honest, afterall i believe that's important for every relationships.
Being Honest, Having good communications.
We shall have more heart-to-heart talks okay,
Though at times some things that we said might hurt,
but it helps to change each other for a better r/s right?
A pity we didnt have such thinking in the past.
" You are like my beloved boyfriend; hubby,
You are like my close friend who i can turn to anytime,
You are like my listening ears who i can rant my sorrows and share joys with you. "
Oh dear boyfriend, i love you with a fire red.

2009-03-09T21:05:00.005+08:00

Lets start off with yesterday.
Met bby on bus,
Sorry for letting you wait.
Caught a movie with Love at greatworld,
Watched Marley & Me.
Its quite nice, real touching.
Hah. I held my tears, although i have bby's shoulder and hugs.
Movie lasted for about 2 hours, ended at 8.
bused to purmei with love,
5-ed , 65-ed, 123-ed.
hah, it has been quite some time since we catch movie alone ourselves le.
Love every moment that we spent,
its just like we're in our own world, with just you and me.
Sorry dear, was a little quiet when we're reaching purmei,
I just hate to leave you, :/
Hah, went dinner with family.
MountFaber-ed and Henderson Wave-d.

I want go Henderson Wave with love, cause I've never did.
I've always hoping to go with love,
even during the period when we separated.
That will be real sweet,
especially when you're with your lover,
it just feels real nice and sweet,
like love's all around in the air.
Everything just seems to be almost perfect.
I remembered, i cried once before when i went there with Jueyu and co.
Cause i thought, i'll never have the second chance again.
Oh lets not talk about history,
I'm gonna cherish bby more this time.
Dont wish to leave him again,
Oh, and i guess,
I've gotta learn not to be so dependent on hubby le.
For example today, hahaha.
I'm missing hubby super duper much.
I don't know why, but bby's just on my mind all the time.
I was like a little out of control today, :x :x
Was rather tired today, :/

Anyway, shotput was cancelled today due to the wet weather.
Alrights, was shivering in class cause i forgot my jacket :/
Was missing bby's hugs,
like how he kept me warm with his hugs at the cinema yesterday.
Hmmm.
Stayed in school, did some work.
Reached home at about 6.
Had performed our skit this morning,
was rather nervous, but overall everything went smoothly.
* Claps for FamousFive :D
Was cramping and i think having a little gastric during class today.
Was superb hungry cause i skipped recess and was doing mathematics,
i skipped lunch cause i couldnt find anyone to eat with.
So the moment i reach home, i began searching for food.
Shotput postpone to tomorrow,
afterwards still gotta help ms khoo paint banner.
see how first bah, if i not tired then i go help bah.
she said, need two hours O:
Homed, Tv-ed, Dinner-ed & Bath-ed.
Waiting for bby to reach home currently,
i feel a sudden of emptiness, when i'm in school.
it just feels empty, alone.
slowly getting used, to doing things alone i guess.

hubby,
iielurrbbiishhxeuu.
[hah, LOL]

2009-03-08T11:01:00.002+08:00

did our english play yesterday.
was damn hilarious,
had lots of laughters and fun.
Hah,
♥ Jean, Luvena, Joey, ZhiMin, Priya :D
We're the Famous Five{!}
after that went to play pool <3.
with aaron, rayner, singwai, junda, yolanda, ischelle.
Pool's addictive :'p
played till bout 8.30pm,
we went dinner at crescent,
i didnt eat :x
then walked with them to the bus stop i always take 195 at,
waited for parents there and homed.
was kinda tired :/
then watched tv all the way till about 12am.
talked to bby on phone,
and off to sleep.

Hah, my pigpig dear is still sleeping :D
this shows, i'm no longer a pig!
Kidding lah,
He's tired, i guess.
i miss you, love.
I want time to faster pass,
so i can meet you.

♥ you're my everything.

2009-03-07T11:11:00.003+08:00

i just love to lie on you,
and listen to your slow and steady heartbeat.
day by day, my love's increasing.
you filled every part of my heart, my soul& my mind.
Love is a great beautifier,
because only when I'm with you,
i felt super blessed, like I'm the happiest person on earth.
i just cant take my eyes away from you.
i hate it everytime when night falls,
cause its the time we'll part.
i love it when the sun rises,
cause its the time we'll meet again.
You taught me whats L-O-V-E.
and that is why, love is amazing.
Forever, isn't enough for me to love you.
I wanna love you for eternity.
i finally understand the true happiness while loving you.
Cause i know no one can treat me better than you do.
Cause i know no one can love me better than you do.
Cause i know no one can ever replace you in my heart.
i want you, and only you.
i wanna grow old with you.
i have never regret since the day i fall in love with you.
just imagine me without you,
i wouldn't know how to live another moment longer.
hubby, i love you.

i know we tend to quarrel at times.
i know I'm always the one who shows you attitudes :/
I'm really sorry, at times i really didn't meant it.
like what i told you,
give me some time,
and I'll change.
to be your almost perfect girlfriend.
I'll always stay by your side,
I'll always love you.
i promised to be more caring,
I'll pay more attention to your needs.
I'm so sorry to have hurt you the other day.
never leave me again,
i really need you.

2009-03-06T23:18:00.010+08:00

very sorry to some friends, guys especially.
i just don't feel like having so much gans.
afterall, we'll still be friends okay :D
glad that all of you understand (:
----
anyway, happy birthday sister.
school today was quite sian.
stayed in class alone do homework, sleep, use laptop till about 4plus i think.
walked out of school, took bus alone.
meet hubby at purmei.
saw yolandaaaaaa ! :D
this lazy bum actually work today leh,
hahaha :'p
p.s, she's gonna kill me :D
bby walked with me till the next bus stop,
took 195 home, and bby went to work.
celebrated sis birthday.
i ate alot lah, stomach was very bloated.
after that use com, chat with bby awhile,
and went to bed (:

HAH ! I FOUND SOMEONE TO LEARN YOGA WITH ME!
NONE OTHER THAN AUNTY SERENE :D
and yolanda maybe (:
looking forwarddddd, !

Look,
you guys may think,
i don't care about our friendship anymore.
Maybe cause since this year,
I've never blogged anything about you all.
Well,
even now i go recess with all of you,
I definitely will be neglected.
We have different topics now.
We're in different cliques.
Kym, Priya, Jingyi, Jillene.
Brenna, Audrey, Hiumun, Wanying, Diana.
I'm alone.
cause when i'm with you all,
i dont know what are you all talking about.
Or maybe its my fault,
i guess, i'm used to being alone in school somehow.
Like, after school.
Sorry beihs.
I know every one of us, definately know we're drifting.
People with emotions, and feelings, will know.
I believe none of us know how to solve the problem.
Even if we go recess together,
we wont have a common topic.
Still, i'll be left out.
I cant stand noise now,
like shoutings, loud laughters.
Sighs,
I'm sorry.

DOES ANYONE KNOWS THE FEELING OF LONELINESS,
EMPTINESS?
i cant stand that kind of life anymore,
but i've no choice.
As long as, people around me are happy.
If one day, bby leave me,
i'll definately be anti-social already :/
of cause, i wouldnt want you to leave.
i need bby, just like how i need oxygen.